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well if my anxiety and my husband's anxeity are anything to compare to i am tormented already by what my children will go through if anything like either of us. I get overwhelmed and i can't breath, i break down and cry or i write or blog and then i'm usually a little stronger afterwards or at least i pretend to be. my husband how ever gets agitated and is unsure how to express what he's feeling. He's never been allowed. all he was taught was anger. so when he gets overwhelmed he gets cranky. i can't be near him like that cause i am so super sensitive that each time his tone is a little edgy i want to cry. i hate feeling like i am a disappointment or a failure so when he is cranky i tend to avoid him. i give him credit though he will always seek me out and apologize and try his best to ease my concerns and fears of inadequacy caused by my disorder. mind you he will never and has never told me or lead me to believe or treated me as a failure or disappointment he always tells me how proud he is to have me as his wife, he builds me up. it's just i react very sensitively to tones of voices. i am an extremely emotional person. i just kinda needed to rant a little lol thanks for listening to me moan and groan oh woe is me even lol