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It's been a while since I had my last discussion here. It was nice reading those that I had before and they made me want to write again. I actually want to talk about this certain situation that happened to me lately. I kinda need you guys to give some advice with regards to this heart problem of mine. I've been single for almost 5 years now and barely dated and entertained suitors maybe due to high standards. But there's this one person whom I opened the door and entertained the fact that I should date again. He was my schoolmate when I was in elementary and high school and it's been a long time since we last saw each other. We finally met again at a port when both of us were going to back to the city from our province. From then on, we started texting and seeing each other. He finds time to visit me in our building and we ate together. It went on for about a month or two. Then, I started to feel like there was something between us. He made me feel special and did things that I really appreciated. However, things did not go as what I thought they are. We suddenly did not talk and see each other again. The communication was on and off. Then, I had a chance again to ask him why he seemed to suddenly disappear before. I took the courage to ask him what happened. He told me that he was unsure of some things. Some things like if he's ready for a deeper relationship or responsibilities and he doesn't want to cause hurt feelings to anybody. He also told me that he did not felt a spark but he called it chemistry. I broke my heart reading his messages. Maybe because after 5 years of being single someone came and made me feel special but that person was not willing to catch me when I fall. I really wanted to get over him but I don't know how and when to start. I don't know where I stand. Why do I have to feel this way? Why does he have to make me feel special? How to move on? Why did I fall for someone who can't be mine? How can I get over this? Tell me. . .