Selfish

Thank you. I always try and write them with feeling. Although there is truth with this one. And that always helps things along.

@Bluedoll Yes it did. And that is true. I am doing fine and have been for quite some time.

@inertia4 poem had a happy ending

I did plenty of getting drunk back then. It never helped. Although it did feel good. But now many years later I am find with the whole thing.

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wow talk about bad advice lol

@inertia4 good to know.

@toniganzon Thanks. I love MyLot.

I have been back since last July. But I never stopped coming to MyLot all these years. But I am back full force these days.

I get that. I feel that way sometimes myself. But what I went through with my marriage wasn't a good feeling at all. But like everything else, I bounced back from it. And most people do.

@epiffanie I see that and I understand that. I was cheated on and lied to. So for me there was no repairing the marriage. She broke the bond, not me. But it is what it is now.

@inertia4 I can also relate to 'bad marriage' .. the most difficult decision one had to make is to break a vow.. But sometimes, vows need to be broken to avoid braking one's soul ..

I am sure of it. Bad situations like that are not easy at the time they are happening. But they do get better.

Because it was selfish to be the way I was and for her to be the way she was. I could have titled it selfless, but I thought selfish was better.

@inertia4 why would it be selfish? sorry, I'm genuinely confused. I think there ought to be a separation between your own identity and the role you play. e.g. My father is not a happy man, but it does not stop him from being a good father to me. Would I prefer him to be happier, sure! But he is who he is, he shouldn't try to be something he is not just because I want him to be different. Surely am also selfish in wanting my parent to conform to my ideals.. I think too often parents feel obligated to become a different person for their children.. and am not sure they should or need to do that

@inertia4 I am very glad to hear that! I think with my husband dying it made me weaker but kinder..

@shaggin I don't know. You don't seem to be weaker to me. I know I don't personally know you, but from the way you write I see a strong woman in you. Life is not fair. Never has been. We do the best we can with what we have. And in my opinion I think you do an awesome job with the cards dealt to you.

The answer is no. I am not feeling like that anymore. That is over now. It was a long stretch for me though. I think we all go through a major hurt in our lives. maybe it makes us stronger.

@inertia4 You are welcome. Yes, I remember reading a lot of your poems.

@velvet53 Cool. Well, stick around more. You will get to read some that used to be on Bubblews and Persona Paper. They will all be here now.

Well, thank you. I try. I have many more where this came from. I think you know that. I have some posted and many more to come. Again, thank you.

LOL. Sorry for laughing. But this is old now. I have passed all this and it is behind me now. I was depressed for some time. Don't get me wrong. But this is something I wrote some years ago.

Thank you. Yes it was sad. But I got over all of it. Look, we go through life not really knowing what will happen. And we do get burned at times. As long as we learn from it.

That it is. Thank you. I lived most of it years ago. So there is personal feelings attached to it.

@Jessicalynnt Well, truth always has a way of getting emotions to show. And it did at the time. I went through a lot of emotions then and writing poems and listening to music actually helped me through it all.

@inertia4 I wondered if that wasn't the case

There are some personal things in this one. But I hope I laid it out in a way where it was relatable to others. Thank you.

I totally agree with you on that. We do have much more to live for. Life is not always easy.