Anger management issues??

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Ussually i handle things very calmly and rationally but sometimes... sometimes one person or one word can make my vision all black and just straight up lose my mind. I was at the mall eating my favorite ice creAm when i decided to stop at this shop and check out the cute top i saw outside... upon entering i saw a couple, the guy was starring at me and giving me all this dirty looks and he was completely ignoring hes gf so i looked away cause the gf caught him and they started to fight. You would think that in a situation like that the girl wouldve left the guy right away.. i was surprise when this girl started screaming and cursing me out saying im a whore and how im trying to steal her man lol i thought it was hilarious at first cause i just coudnt believe it; that all changed when she pushed me with her finger tho.... At that moment i just lost it....like something took over me, cause the next thing i remembered was i was on top of her and her face was full of blood while a great amount of her hair is in my hand. I coudnt stop shaking... her bf coudnt even stop me and also punch him in the process so he decided to leave hes girl and get help hahaha SMH Before the gaurds even got there i remember bashing her head on the floor (shes ok tho she just needs a couple of stitches) and i just hurridly went for the exit. After i got out i stand on the parking lot for awhile and it all dawned on me... and i couldnt even believe that just happened it felt like i know what i was doing but i coudnt stop, and this isnt even the first time it happened.. sometimes i just snap specially when someone lays their hands on me first. Im thinking maybe its a defense mechanism...im starting to think its a problem tho. Have you ever snapped before? How do you deal with yourself when youre really angry?