~A Secret I Have Been Keeping~

And you know what? That's totally okay. Your feelings are perfectly valid, and there's nothing wrong with feeling regret over things that aren't going the way you hoped they would. I'm at work right now, but I'm going to PM you later when I get home with a few suggestions. Huge hugs, hon. You can do this, regardless of what path you choose.

I know how you feel, Jennifer. Hubby and I have always said we'll take as many babies as God will give us. But after #6 was born, I started feeling like we were blessed enough. His birth was a little rough so the idea of going through labor again scares me. I'm also finding that I'm not as patient a mother as I always dreamed I would be. I feel guilty because I want to get to the next stage. I want to get past diapers and toilet training. I want to get to the point where ALL the kids sleep through the night. Where we can go out and do things as a family, without me having to nurse or jiggle a fussy baby and miss out on the fun. But since I'm against hormonal preventatives and neither hubby nor I want to make a drastic surgical change, I'm left with charting my courses. sigh. I would be oh-so-thrilled if #6 was our last...but if we end up with #7, I'm sure I'll be happy. It's a wishy-washy feeling. And my family makes sucky comments, too. I think they're always on edge, waiting to hear that Genipher is pregnant again and, sheesh! Can't she stop overpopulating the earth already? Anyway, I'm sure once you get past the first trimester and can feel that first flutter, you'll feel better. I didn't "feel" anything for baby #2 until I felt him kick. And then the love flooded in. And just think of what great things God has in store for this baby of yours! Be encouraged! And congratulations!

I can understand how this could scare you especially considering your financial situation. I know you have deep faith so trust in God that this is a blessing.

Babies are part of God's plan. He wants this child on earth and is giving you the privilege. I think I might know how you feel, it is too soon and you thought your family was complete. This will be okay, you'll see.

All we hear is just an opinion. People can say anything they want to say, try to bring you down. And you'll be affected. The baby can be affected. It's a domino effect. You've raised four. Another one is a bonus. Cheer up Jen.

I can understand your mixed emotions, but you will be so happy in the long run. Congratulations!

I felt the same when my kids came unplanned. People were laughing behind my back. I felt ashamed but I know I should not. But they're grown-ups now and I am thankful to God for giving them to us.

A baby is a blessing but I know you already have four kids that is hard for you to support. Tell your husband he should know and I hope it will all work out.

I am happy for you, your kids, your future baby and for your husband. Things happen for a reason, I had 2 unplanned pregnancies, both were the greatest blessings of my life. I know that the same holds true for you. You'll be fine, if not better then fine. I would hope that nobody will judge you, afterall, I was always taught that people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones. woohoo, another addition!

Sadly pretty much any method is capable of failing except the sterilization ones. I've even heard people say those can fail, but I always questioned that in my mind. And no, nobody needs to be rude about it for heaven's sake. It's cause for stress in the first place. Take care of yourself.

If you are successfully bringing up 4 children then an extra one should be no problem for you. It's only a 25% increase after all No point being filled with regret. You are where you are and I'm sure once the baby is born that regret will completely disappear. Congratulations!

Congratulations! 5 children! wow!

Lucky you,you are so blessed I'm honestly happy for you.And you know what? God planned this for you,He have His reasons so believe in Him.

We are humans and we are allowed to feel guilty, that is how we know we have a conscience and without that we might as well call our selves robots, when we don't make plans in our lives and something unexpected happens we will feel regrets and guilt. So it's not you alone feels this way at times we all as humans do, and if anyone want to say something about it let them because you know the God that delivers you before, you have faith that he will do it again, ignore negativity and hold your head high, you are a married woman and you are bless, so give God thanks.

Just look on the bright side of things. I agree that kids are blessings. Don't be sad. Keep on with your faith and I know that God has reasons for everything. Just enjoy what He is giving you and never let other's thinking to discourage you. You are very blessed already to have your own family.

You know that you have lots of support from your family here on myLots. This happened for a reason and I see that you are trusting God. You know that he will provide for you. Don't be hard on yourself because you are thinking realistically.

My daughter has 5 children and every one of them is a blessing. Children are a gift from God and I personally am delighted for you even if the timing isn't perfect. Sometimes the best things come out of mistakes and this is likely to be one of them. My daughter was not a planned child, she is 14 months from her closet brother, and she has turned out to be my best friend and a joy in my life so just think of all the people who would gladly change places with you and be glad.

It's totally OK to feel how you feel. 5 kids will be no easy task, but just remember that you are strong and it will be a blessing even if it was not planned. I'm sure you will feel differently. Good luck and congrats!!!! :-)

Congratulations. You know you will fall in love with this new baby. But I can understand all the mixed emotions right now. Take care.

You have been blessed with children and this time again an angel has been coming to your home. Be cheerful, enjoy this time. It is a wonderful feeling and live the time in awesome moments. God is great and will show you the path to take well care of children.