I'm Back & More Inspired!

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Before anything else! Hurry! I just wanna say Hi to everyone! I'm glad to be back after 9 months... It's quite a long story why I was suddenly been missing in action, In writing I mean hohoho ?? !! Let's just say I just gave myself a time to be healed & now that I'm back, I'm so happy that I could share some of what happened last year. To begin with I was been in my darkest days when month of november last year 2015. I remembered I wrote something about it here on mylot, so for more details of the story just find it in my discussion. Thank you! Anyways, I was in the stage of my life wherein I don't know where to begin again & how will I'm gonna do it. Things weren't sure, I'm broken & devastated. Here comes December last year & we all know its a celebration of gift giving & Love. But mine wasn't like that! Did I planned to celebrate it? Yes! Did I celebrated it with love? Hmmm well partially, Yes! For my son but I'm still mesirable those times. I'm still a fresh wounded heart. But, eventually I survived it in a way. Good thing my Family didn't left me, Infact they're with me along the way of my moving on & healing proccess of my broken heart ofcourse. I struggled to move on, & there were times I thought I'm run out of option & for me the only option that I have is to end my life. I'm an introvert type of person, I grew up in different places so I wasn't been able to build a circle of friends. So, Because of that circumstances... There were no Friends to talk to, No shoulder to lean on & To cry on. Though, my family was there for me Still, I couldn't open everything & I'm too afraid to cry infront of them but ofcourse they know I'm crying my loneliness in the inside.! Those are the moments that I just made myself alone. Going out without informing anyone where I am, but don't worry I was just in a place nearby where it's open 24hrs. Sitting quitely in the corner, looking at the people ordering food, staring on the lovers next to my table & thinking of why now? Why me? & How Am I gonna surpass all of this challenges? To make the story short I didn't ended up my life , because if I did I'm not supposed to be here right now writing this.... Hehehe ?? . I really do believe that Every difficulties in life is a challenge to learn & to be strong. Doesn't mean you failed, you've been broken & what ever struggle or life difficulties you are in right now, You're already useless in this world. It might be you're just destined to be more great than what you are before. There's still Hope & always look on the bright side of everything. Now that I finally moved on, I can say that Life is an unending challenge, You will be a loser if you will let yourself be a loser. Get up & show the world Your a good fighter & A winner! You will survive everything if you will believe you Can! Learn from yesterdays pains & get back! Thanks for reading everyone. Have a good day & Goodnight !