Please don't help me I'm Bipolar!

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Does that sound familiar? Probably not. Bipolars are some of the most desperate people walking the face of this planet. Probably they need help more than anyone else. They go from doctor to psychiatrist and from psychiatrist to psychologist, using any and every possible medication available. Then they repeat the cycle with a new doctor, psychiatrist and psychologist and new medications. All of this without getting true and lasting help. What then is the deepest desperation of the Bipolar? The fact that nobody, absolutely nobody understands him. The more people try to help them, the more painful their experience becomes, for they intuitively feel that they are not understood. I have sought for understanding for many decades. Could not find anyone with whom I could share what I am going through. How do you explain to someone that you are unable to function emotionally, that you feel so dysfunctional that you cannot even get up from the bed to put the nail in the wall that your wife asked you to do weeks ago. That you absolutely do not want to speak to people. That you just feel up to NOTHING! One day I opened the scriptures and found this word:- .... there is no one who understands; there is no one who seeks God. Rom 3:11. I took that as God explaining to me that absolutely no one understands the Bipolar, but at the same time, that he as Creator, do understand. SInce that day this crucial battle became easier, I came to acceptance of the fact that it is actually unfair to expect that people who never felt this way, should understand it. Then I knew I had to face this battle alone with God, who felt pretty far away at that time. As the saying goes; I would have preferred someone with skin on. Even now, with more than 37 years experience of this sickness, I feel so at loss to find the words to describe what it is.