Have you ever felt sometimes that all you want to happen is to disappear on this planet?

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Well, that was what I felt this afternoon when our principal spilled the news to me. I did not have any idea that he has been planning to make me as one of the speakers in a Research Seminar. This morning, I received a memo that my colleague and I are going to a seminar by Tuesday. I thought we will just be participants until our principal told me that I will be the speaker. When I heard about it, I think I just uttered a big OMG. My topic will be about "Plagiarism." It is an interesting topic but I am really not that confident when I am speaking in front. I am very afraid that I might too nervous that I cannot say any much word. My audience will be those teachers that might be of a higher rank or might have attained higher education than me. Actually, I am afraid that my knowledge about my topic is not enough. I am afraid that there are more people who deserve to speak in front than me. My principal told me he will back me up, but of course, I am still nervous. I talked to my boyfriend about it and he told me "I am the best and I can do it." I hope. I really really hope and pray that everything will run smoothly. I am going to speak for 3 hours, how I wish it could be lessened to 1 hour. Please pray for me. This is gonna be the first time that I will be a Resource Speaker in a seminar.