I Am Not Good in “Adulting”

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I am already in my early 30’s, but I am the first one to admit that there were times that I struggle at being an adult. First of all, what do I mean by being an adult, anyway? For me, being an adult means: - you pay for your own bills (check) - you’re old enough to watch R-18 movies - you set-up your own doctor’s appointments (check) - you know what you want and you know how to get it (half-check) - you have a good job (check) - you make sound, life-altering decisions based on facts (not yet) In paper, it is pretty much straight-forward and easy to be an adult. But in reality, I struggle big time. I am hopeless when it comes to directions. I am easily confused. I tend to be overly emotional. I get anxious at the simplest things. And quite frankly, I am not good in making decisions by myself. I know that I can be responsible to the core when the situation calls for it (like when I have to step in and raise my 2 younger siblings), but for the most part you will never see me volunteering for the job. Which leads me to my next question: what is the best time in a person’s life? Is it infancy, when people cater to all your whims and wants and needs, but you hardly ever realize nor remember any of it. Is it elderly, when you can be forgetful and still revered by your family without the hard work of a younger person, but with lesser energy to actually enjoy it? For me, the best age of a person to be in is the age he/she is in right now. You have the power to make things happen, to improve yourself, to build your future, to be what you want, to do what you want. You already have the life lessons of your younger years, and the prospect of seeing it get applied in your future. Enjoy your “age” now, for you can never go back to it once you have moved on to the next chapter of your life.