~I Am A Hypocrite-My Confession~
By Jennifer
@LovingMyBabies (85288)
Valdosta, Georgia
December 10, 2016 6:30pm CST
Good evening. I hope your all doing well today. As the title says, it's true I am truly a hypocrite. I guess we all are in some way but I am feeling guilty for it.
Any other month I would be thrilled that my husband was getting a lot of work in. Any other month I would be so grateful he's working hard and doing the best he can for his family.
Right now though...all I have been wanting and focused on is that home I want so bad. It's wrong for me to be ungrateful the way that I have been. I haven't been very nice to my husband because I wanted to move weeks ago and things haven't worked out that way. I feel ashamed and ridiculous. I should be grateful I have any roof over my head since some people aren't that lucky...and we have been in that situation before. I know better...
My husband wants to finish these couple of jobs he has right now before we move in so we have money to rely on in case something comes up. He's almost done with them but of course that wasn't good enough for me... He's been telling me this weekend all along...to shut my annoying self up.
I am a hypocrite because I tell my children often to be grateful and yet here I was being ungrateful...
From now on...when we move really is in the Lord's hands. I can't act this way anymore.
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39 responses
@marguicha (223795)
• Chile
11 Dec 16
Sure. You are ungrateful. But, who isn´t? We always want more than what we have. I think that if we accept that we are not perfect, at least we can try to be better. I know I´m no angel. But my understanding that helps me understand the imperfections of my loved ones.
You are doing your best. And you have been working too hard and are tired. You are just human. And a very lovely human, as I can see from this post
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Dec 16
@marguicha I know, I am just usually much more grateful than I have been lately. =(
I am feeling exhausted and overwhelmed at this point. I feel like nothing at all is in my control anymore and I don't like that feeling.
Well, thank you. I try to be a good person-sometimes I am better at it than other times.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Dec 16
@Butchcass4 Well thank you. I do definitely have my weak moments. And this move while being pregnant is bringing my moments to the surface. =(
I am 31 weeks along in my pregnancy. I will absolutely keep your daughter in law in my prayers. Thank you, I have been trying harder today to focus on keeping busy instead of sitting around thinking about everything.
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@Butchcass4 (5895)
• United States
11 Dec 16
You are truly a beautiful woman of God who is totally human and capable of sinning as you are faced with many barriers and trials. Read Zephaniah 3:17 thats how God feels about you no matter what you do or do not do He couldn't love you anymore than He does right now. How far along are you in your pregnancy? Will you pray for my daughter-in-law, she's trying to get pregnant and has lost one baby so far and is pregnant again but when she went to the doctors she wasn't far enough along to detect the heart beat. Hearing that heart beat will bring a flood of tears of relief as they were devastated with the loss of their first child. Some times getting our minds on some one elses pain can help us out of our own. Your move will happen as you said in God's time so you can just relax and let it go Cast your burdens on Jesus for He cares for you!
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@Happy2BeMe (99380)
• Canada
11 Dec 16
It is very stressful and you just want to get moved. You have been packed and ready to go for awhile and now you are just waiting and waiting. I know you don't mean to be ungrateful or be nagging him. You just want to move. I hope it happens son for you and your family.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Dec 16
@Happy2beme It is, I am feeling overwhelmed and worried. =( I hate waiting like this, it's so hard. Thank you, I keep hoping each day that passes that it will happen very soon.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Dec 16
@AmbiePam Thank you, I think exhaustion has been getting the best of me lately.
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@louievill (28851)
• Philippines
11 Dec 16
Think you are on the right path, being honest to yourself, admitting your wrong thoughts, asking for forgiveness and letting God's will prevail over our crazy emotions is the right way to go.
Don't worry it's not only you, I had been through a similar situation this week, in fact I'm lying here right now asking for forgiveness about something when i read your post.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Dec 16
@louievill Thanks, I do need to let God have my worries and concerns about the house and be more grateful for what I do have right now.
I'm glad I'm not the only one, thanks for telling me that. =)
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@Butchcass4 (5895)
• United States
11 Dec 16
@louevil I take it your a Christian? I am so proud of you asking forgiveness for whatever you did. Pride is the one thing that can stand in our way when we are wrestling with our sinful flesh. But God our Father is ever here watching over us and leading and guiding us along the right way! He is thrilled when we repent and choose His way instead of the sinful natures way.
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@louievill (28851)
• Philippines
11 Dec 16
@LovingMyBabies yes we should be counting blessings instead of worrying, let's both let go and let God take charge at least let's try, it's not that easy but he understands
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@LadyDuck (472060)
• Switzerland
11 Dec 16
Do not feel down, you are not a hypocrite not you are ungrateful. You were so pleased to move in the new house that you could not contain your excitement and you wanted that this happened quickly. You will move soon, relax and everything will be fine.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Dec 16
@LadyDuck Yeah I was being a little too impatient because I was excited and overwhelmed at the same time. But I know it will happen in the right time. =) I just have to focus on other things and keep busy.
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@Butchcass4 (5895)
• United States
11 Dec 16
Your not the first nor will you be the last that behaves in a sinful way. We all have things in our lives that we need to work on, otherwise we wouldn't be here. There was only one Perfect man and you know Him, His name is Jesus. And 1 John 1:9 says if we confess our sin He is faithful and just to forgive us our sin and cleanse us from all unrighteousness. You've done your part, you confessed it to all of myLot, which I'm proud of you for doing as we all out here in myLot, if were honest will have to say we too are a hypocrite for one thing or another. Have you asked your husband to forgive you? I'm sure I don't have to tell you thats part of the process as you are a child of the most high God and you know what you need to do. God bless you for your honesty and humility Sister in Christ!
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Dec 16
@Butchcass4 Yeah I know, we all do have plenty of sins. I have apologized to my husband and he apologized to me for making false promises about when we will be moving. He wants to make me happy so much that he will tell me anything to do that-but that's not the right thing to do.
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@Butchcass4 (5895)
• United States
18 Dec 16
JoAnn you are absolutely right, I have a tendency to act like I know it all and I ask for forgiveness to Jennifer and all of mylot. I pray for peace, love and joy to all in mylot. Again please forgive me for being a hypocrite. I will try to do better and be more encouraging from now on. I will think before I type, thanks JoAnn for setting me straight
@ElusiveButterfly (45940)
• United States
11 Dec 16
Don't be too hard on yourself lady. Everything will fall into place when it is time. Breathe, pray, smile.
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@ElusiveButterfly (45940)
• United States
11 Dec 16
@LovingMyBabies I know you can do it. Pregnancy can make a woman a little bonkers too. It comes with the territory. Big hugs to you lady.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Dec 16
@ElusiveButterfly Thanks, I am trying to focus on God more and getting everything ready to go instead of worrying.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
12 Dec 16
@ElusiveButterfly Thank you for having faith in me and understanding.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Dec 16
@dodo19 Yeah, I have been really selfish lately and it's embarrassing. =( I am going to try to do better.
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@dodo19 (47336)
• Beaconsfield, Quebec
11 Dec 16
@LovingMyBabies At least you're realizing it, and want to change. That's at least something.
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@Butchcass4 (5895)
• United States
11 Dec 16
@LovingMyBabies Taking responsibility for your actions is very mature and a godly trate. Know that God our Father is very proud of you being willing to take responsibility for your actions and He loves you unconditionally.
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@Tina30219 (82066)
• Onaway, Michigan
11 Dec 16
You are not a hypocrite you are a pregnant woman that wants to move into her new home and get all settled before the holidays arrive. It will happen I will be waiting for the post to come saying you are moving.
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@Tina30219 (82066)
• Onaway, Michigan
18 Dec 16
@LovingMyBabies Hou also have pregnancy hormones right now. The move will come soon and then you have the new year followed by thst precious babh coming soon.
@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Dec 16
@Tina30219 Thank you. I feel like a hot mess tonight. I cannot wait for the day we move into our new home. I know it will happen, it just feels like it's taking forever...I am trying so hard to be patient but I feel like I'm failing miserably.
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@PatZAnthony (14749)
• Charlotte, North Carolina
12 Dec 16
It is not always easy to practice what we preach when we are an adult carrying a ton of things on our mind. It will all come together.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
12 Dec 16
@PatZAnthony Yeah I am sure with time things will improve.
@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Dec 16
@DianneN Yeah, I just wanted to be in there way before now so we could better focus on Christmas-especially for our children's sake. It is what it is though.
Things have been overwhelming between Aunt Mary, not much sleep at night, all of the packing, taking care of 4 kids, being pregnant and still having this house to clean each day. I am pretty much exhausted...
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@DianneN (247184)
• United States
11 Dec 16
@LovingMyBabies None of that is helping. This will all pass, and you will be in your new beautiful Florida home before you know it. I'm sure you wouldn't want Aunt Mary there anyway!
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@Morleyhunt (21744)
• Canada
11 Dec 16
Children learn more from the example you set then from the lessons you try to teach them.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Dec 16
@Morleyhunt Exactly why I'm going to try harder now.
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@Butchcass4 (5895)
• United States
11 Dec 16
@Morleyhunt So true! I wished I would have realized that when my children were still at home within my influence and that I would have done things the right way. I'll be honest I parented out of fear and what a mess I made. Only God can help my adult children now as they struggle to try to make it in life. I have one adult child who does very well and I'm thankful for him and his wife, they are wonderful people.
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@Morleyhunt (21744)
• Canada
11 Dec 16
@Butchcass4 I have five wonderful children... Somehow With Gods help they are all responsible well adjusted adults.
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@andriaperry (117146)
• Anniston, Alabama
12 Dec 16
Dont beat yourself up, its natural to want to get things moving and if you would have had a car I know you would be doing all you could alone.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
12 Dec 16
@andriaperry Thank you, I am ready for it all to be done with. =)
@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Dec 16
@NJChicaa That is how I'm feeling lately, like nothing is in my control anymore.
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@beenice2 (2967)
• Sackville, New Brunswick
12 Dec 16
@LovingMyBabies It is in God's hands.
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@GardenGerty (160978)
• United States
11 Dec 16
Oh, but you woke up and figured it all out. We have to do it sometimes. I know your husband knows you are impatient, but he also knows you love him. You know he loves you, but the added stresses of seeing him less and dealing with Aunt Mary and the progressing pregnancy probably have your attitude all twisted out of proportion.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
12 Dec 16
@GardenGerty Yeah it is a lot going on at one time. Packing, cleaning, dealing with Aunt Mary, being pregnant, lack of sleep, 4 children who are also getting impatient about the move, etc... I'm trying the best I can to hold it all together.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
12 Dec 16
@Hatley Yeah everything just hit all at once and I'm exhausted. Thank you, I try to be a good person.
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@BelleStarr (61101)
• United States
11 Dec 16
Time for a prayer for patience and then forgive yourself and your husband. You have an abundance of good right now and you are overwhelmed, it will all come out well in the end, That is how I get myself through everything. This too shall pass and when it does, it will be wonderful.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Dec 16
@BelleStarr Yes I did pray for patience. I am feeling very overwhelmed, and I am exhausted from everything going on. I know it will happen with time, I just need to focus on other things until it does happen.
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@LeaPea2417 (37381)
• Toccoa, Georgia
11 Dec 16
I am the same way. I have told my kids many times in the past to be grateful and then I will act not grateful in certain situations.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
11 Dec 16
@LeaPea2417 Yeah, I think we all do it unintentionally sometimes. I am working harder on that now.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
12 Dec 16
@marlina Thank you, I am exhausted in every way possible at this point. Just trying to hold it all together.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
12 Dec 16
@paigea I am, just being impatient lately. I thought we were going to be moved long before now and things aren't the easiest right now. I'm sure things will get better soon though. Thank you. =)
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