feelings are complicated

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Relationships are complicated. That's something I've come to realize over the years. You can be so angry with someone, but you don't stop loving them. I get upset with my boyfriend a lot, sometimes to the point I'd like to smack the stupidity out of him, of course I don't, but it's definitely an urge I get. Despite that I don't want anything bad happening to him. I can be so angry and want him to just leave me alone, but at the same time I still love him and his well being trumps my feelings of anger. It's so complicated how it all works, how you can want to physically smack someone, but not want any real harm to come to them. Anger is such a powerful emotion, but so is love. There's this meme going around about being upset but still caring, and an old man and woman are sitting separated on a bench with the old man still holding an umbrella over his wife so she doesn't get wet, and I keep thinking about how accurate that is. When you truly love someone, anger doesn't get in the way of your ability to care. It definitely makes things more complicated, but you don't stop caring. If you do, then that may be saying something. You can yell and scream at someone, but drop everything the instant they are hurt. Of course that doesn't make everything go away, but it gets put on the back burner until you know they're OK, you don't get to just forget everything, because if nothing gets solved it will just be an issue later. It has just always amused me the way feelings work. The statement love trumps hate, that's true. Love trumps anger, and it trumps hate, there's a difference between anger and hate, but usually hate has a lot to do with anger. We can be very hateful when we're angry and say things we don't mean. I've always been one to try and watch what I say, because once you say something they can't be unsaid. Anger is a horrible emotion, but I'm pretty sure we've all felt it at some point, and it's a normal emotion, we all have at last one thing that bothers us to the point of anger. Anger can be an extremely powerful emotion, but love is even more powerful. When you truly love someone you won't let a feeling like anger get in the way of that. It's just sad that sometimes the only thing to make you realize how much you love someone is something bad happening.