Depression has set in, and my attempts to lift my spirits

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I've been feeling pretty blue lately. My husband has worked 5 straight days of 12-hour shifts arriving home at 8pm, eating and falling asleep shortly thereafter. So I've been pretty much alone. I have had no desire to go out, though the grocery list is growing. Maybe tomorrow. Honestly, I have been doing everything I can to lift my spirits. Because my daughter invited me to the work week challenge on Fit Bit, which is ridiculous because she is running around at work all day and I'm home all day. But I've been throwing myself into exercise including a couple of hours on the treadmill. Exercise is supposed to lift your spirits. It doesn't seem to have helped. Another method is to do volunteer work or do something for others. First, I cooked 4 dinners out of 5 this week. That's got to be a record for me. I also went to a meeting at church for a new prayer group and because I am the youngest of the group and the most tech savvy (i.e. I know how to type with all my fingers), I volunteered to be the coordinator of the team. It's all in my hands. So I am helping people by praying, organizing prayer, and offering to help the other team members. Seems like more work for me but I don't imagine this will be a very busy project. Besides, helping others is supposed to lift your spirits. Well... sort of. I've joined this new network of friends online. Because my daughter insists on watching Netflix I cannot live stream when the group is online. That kind of makes me feel a little left out of the group. I'm a little po'd at my daughter and the fact that for some reason Netflix gets internet priority over my computers and phone. So feeling a little left out brought me down a bit too. The weather has been gray and gloomy and today even foggy. Definitely not weather to cheer you up. As I was making dinner tonight I was on a vocal chat with some of the members of the group and that cheered me up considerably. But then the snapchat stuff happened (see previous post) and I felt out of it again. My friend that was in a car accident that is going to take her months and months to recover from texted me today saying how gloomy it was and depressing. I feel bad I haven't made an effort to get out and visit her again. I'm going to try next week but she has a couple of visitors coming and a lawyer's appointment. We'll see if we can fit a visit in. She has it worse than me and I should have reached out to her sooner. Good news, I lost 3 pounds this week. I've been reaching my 8 hours a night of sleep most nights, some nights not, some nights as much as 9, but Fit Bit indicates that there are several interruptions to my sleep throughout the night. So, I'm exhausted no matter how much sleep I get. I'm reaching my water drinking goals, and got my 10,000 steps I think twice since I started a week or so after Christmas. You'd think stuff like this would pick me up but I still feel left out of the group at times. And I haven't managed to get to my writing. Exercise has taken precedence. By the time that's done it's time to make dinner and then I'm too exhausted to focus. So I'm doing all the things you're supposed to do to help lift depression but I still feel kind of down. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. We'll see.