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I almost threw a vase at my boyfriend. Why? He came by to give me flowers. Simple as that. I almost threw the glass vase with those flowers at my boyfriend. I understand why he did it. I was feeling like complete and utter crap, depressed. But I think I was having an anxiety attack at the time. He quickly opened my bedroom door as I was crying and freaking out a bit in bed. He placed that vase on my floor and snuck right out. I jumped right out of my bed and grabbed that vase. I had the hugest urge to chuck it right at him. He luckily was quick enough up the stairs. I told him the day before to leave me alone that night, not to text me or come over or anything. Which he agreed to. Then that day before the whole freak out, I told him to legitimately leave me alone completely for the whole rest of this week. He has done this before. Come over unannounced when I have told him to leave me be. But he literally doesn't listen or learn. And this time, I was having a small anxiety attack when he arrived. I told him not to come near me or touch me or try to talk to me when I am having one. I normally cannot control myself during. I guess I felt threatened by his surprise walk in. I don't know. I think I may have some anger issues along with my depression and anxiety. I know I have a short temper but I think it may be more than just a character flaw.