7th April. 10 years since my mum left.
@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
Perth, Australia
April 6, 2017 11:00am CST
10 years ago today, I thought I was finally getting things under control. A lot had happened in my early teen years that just added to my depression. At 16 years old, I thought things were getting a little bit better. Until my brother rang to tell me that our mum had passed away due to a brain aneurysm. She was 46.
I remember it like it was yesterday. It's so clear in my head. What was around me. What was being said. How sick I felt. And how it felt like a major part of me died along with her.
I'm very grateful for the family members that I have around me. But it does always make me very sad on this day knowing that all this time, I've missed out on hugging her. Celebrating her birthday. Christmas. Mother's Day. Laughing with her. Going shopping. Telling her my worries. My achievements. And everything in between as well as whatever my future holds.
I become such a wreck on this day and even as I type this I'm bawling my eyes out.
I have a lot of unresolved issues with her. But for the remaining of this horrible day, all I can think about is how much I miss her.
I love you Mummy Bear. And I miss you terribly.
****Photo is of my mum and a one year old me on the table****
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54 responses
@cmoneyspinner (9219)
• Austin, Texas
6 Apr 17
When you came into the world it was a happy but traumatic event. Traumatic because of your mom's labor pains? No. Traumatic for you, the baby. Because they had to cut the cord that kept you attached to your mother and in a warm and comfortable place: her womb. Then one day, she leaves you behind this world and the cord is permanently severed. That's not so easy to get over. You learn to accept it. But you still feel like a part of you is missing. I totally understand how you feel.
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@ptrikha_2 (47083)
• India
7 Apr 17
Yes the loss is irreplacable. I too lost my mother in 2008 and can feel the loss even today. But life has to move on...
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@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
6 Apr 17
@cmoneyspinner Thank you so much for your answer! It's very true! All of it is.
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@Daljinder (23236)
• Bangalore, India
6 Apr 17
Damn it...I forgot. I feel so horrible especially since it was just yesterday you told me about the date. I am so sorry dudette. How are you doing?
.............and now I see why the extra smiley faces in the message 
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@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
6 Apr 17
@Daljinder That's ok! It's more a date for me to remember than anyone else anyway. 
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@Daljinder (23236)
• Bangalore, India
6 Apr 17
@VivaLaDani13 I still felt bad. It completely slipped my mind. 
Not cool on my part.
Not cool on my part.5 people like this
@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
6 Apr 17
@Daljinder I understand. Like me and birthdays! 
I hate forgetting! Though, I do that on purpose. 
And thank you for suggesting this post!
I hate forgetting! Though, I do that on purpose. And thank you for suggesting this post!6 people like this
@silvermist (19702)
• India
6 Apr 17
@VivaLaDani That you lost your mom when you were just 16 is shocking and sad.She was so young.That is a rare photo of you and your mom.
Thank you @Daljinder for bringing me here.
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@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
6 Apr 17
@silvermist It really was too young for her and young for me. I love that photo. 
Any photo with mum in I love. Thank you for stopping by!
Any photo with mum in I love. Thank you for stopping by!7 people like this
@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
6 Apr 17
@DWDavis It seems nothing takes away that pain of wanting to see her again but for people to be so kind with what they have to say, I really appreciate it. So thank you very much.
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@WorDazza (15830)
• Manchester, England
7 Apr 17
Knowing what I was like at 16 I can't think of a worse age at which to lose a parent.
There's absolutely nothing wrong with just letting yourself go and letting it all out on this particular day, or on any day for that matter.
I'm 52 now and I still have both of my parents so I can't even begin to imagine how you must have been feeling over the last 10 years.
It's very brave of you to write so openly about this and I think this, and everything else I've found out about you through myLot, shows that in the 16 years you had together your mum did a wonderful job.
My thoughts are with you.
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@WorDazza (15830)
• Manchester, England
10 Apr 17
@VivaLaDani13 I have my moments 
I also speak the truth!!
Hope you are feeling better today.
I also speak the truth!!
Hope you are feeling better today.3 people like this
@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
10 Apr 17
@WorDazza 
Thank you. Hope you are doing well yourself!
Thank you. Hope you are doing well yourself!3 people like this
@dpk262006 (58678)
• Delhi, India
7 Apr 17
All I can say is that there is no one like mother in this earth, therefore, your pain is understandable. We are sorry to hear that your mother left for her heavenly abode when you were very young. We do understand that you miss your mother and will continue to miss her. Having said that I would like to add that life is like a flowing river and we need to flow with the tide, we need to move ahead in life to face the challenges of life.
I am sure you will put your best foot forward to overcome difficulties in life.
Our best wishes are always with you.
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@dpk262006 (58678)
• Delhi, India
8 Apr 17
@VivaLaDani13 I am sure that you are very strong and you will sail through every challenge you face in your life.
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@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
7 Apr 17
@dpk262006 Thank you so much! I agree with you.
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@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
8 Apr 17
@dpk262006 Thank you very much.
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@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
7 Apr 17
@SIMPLYD It sure is. Thank you for your response!
Thank you for your response!4 people like this
@LeaPea2417 (37379)
• Toccoa, Georgia
6 Apr 17
I am so sorry to read that. My prayers go out to you on this day for God's comfort for you.
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@garymarsh6 (23404)
• United Kingdom
6 Apr 17
Good grief 46 years is no age to die. I am so sorry you are so young to have to deal with it. Time is a great healer. She would hate to think you are unhappy she would want you to enjoy life and enjoy each day as if it were your last. Big hugs and think of all the lovely times you had together and cherish those thoughts!
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@garymarsh6 (23404)
• United Kingdom
9 Apr 17
@VivaLaDani13 Well done job done! Big hugs!
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@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
6 Apr 17
@garymarsh6 I agree. My mum wouldn't want me to be upset. I try to think about that but doesn't always work unfortunately. Thank you so much for your support and kind words!
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@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
7 Apr 17
@garymarsh6 I really enjoyed reading this response of yours. It made me smile. I loved her laugh. In fact she used to snort lol and then her snorts made her laugh more which meant more snorting lol And when I was a baby I used to pull her hair! 
I also loved hearing about your mum lol She sounds like a riot!
Thank you so much for making me smile / have a giggle to myself.
I also loved hearing about your mum lol She sounds like a riot!
Thank you so much for making me smile / have a giggle to myself. 4 people like this
@moffittjc (121714)
• Gainesville, Florida
7 Apr 17
Oh Dani, I'm sorry I can't be there to give you a big hug and hold you in my arms closely. I'm sorry to hear of the loss of your mum and how much it still hurts. Just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
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@moffittjc (121714)
• Gainesville, Florida
9 Apr 17
@VivaLaDani13 Anything for you Dani! 
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@chrissbergstrom (10767)
• Banks, Oregon
6 Apr 17
I am so very sorry the loss of one's mother is truly unimaginable
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@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
7 Apr 17
@chrissbergstrom Thank you very much Chris!
@Lupita234 So sorry to hear about your dad! very awful!
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@ShifaLk (17817)
• India
6 Apr 17
Oh my god.
Your post has made me really sad. I'm really so so sorry to hear. Mom's are very very very special, everyone doesn't realise though. But please don't cry, I know how it feels but I can never feel what you feel, I never lost a loved one... but yes, I have lost someone as that person has left me because of some misunderstanding.
But for the ones who have gone to Heaven, There's a Hope that we'll meet one day and that's the hope a true hope we all have. ......
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@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
6 Apr 17
@ShifaLk I'm sorry you experienced a loss through a misunderstanding! That can be so tough too!
Thank you so much for your kind and understanding words!
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@ShifaLk (17817)
• India
7 Apr 17
@VivaLaDani13 Yes, but this is life and we have to keep moving to survive you know.
And actually, it took me Complete 1 year to get out of that shock of my life.
Take care dear
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@jpj1990 (4)
• London, England
7 Apr 17
What a beautiful picture of you and your mother, she's beautiful and so are you! I'm ever so sorry for your loss, losing someone so fundamental to your life at such a young age must have been destroying. I wish you all the best for your future, and I'm sure she's very proud of her daughter to this day.
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@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
7 Apr 17
@jpj1990 That was very sweet. Made me tear up. Thank you very much for such a lovely thing to say!
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@allknowing (137781)
• India
7 Apr 17
That's being too young to lose your mother and too young for your mother to die. But life has to move on. It is but natural that you remember this day.
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@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
7 Apr 17
@allknowing Sure was. Thank you for stopping by.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
7 Apr 17
I am so sorry. I am sure this day is so hard for you. =( I cannot imagine losing my mom now much less when I was that young.
I cannot imagine losing my mom now much less when I was that young. 5 people like this
@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
7 Apr 17
@LovingMyBabies I've heard a lot of people say that. And I wish I were in your shoes than mine. I'm so glad your mum is still there. You're very lucky. Thanks for your response. I hope everything is going well with you too!
I hope everything is going well with you too!3 people like this
@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
7 Apr 17
@JudyEv Thank you very much Judy.
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@Courtlynn (67080)
• United States
6 Apr 17
Im so sorry for your loss. I wish you a good future
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@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
6 Apr 17
@Courtlynn Thank you very much!
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@Shiva49 (26776)
• Singapore
7 Apr 17
Sorry to hear about loss of your mother too earLy in your life.
When I come to know some who are unfortunate to lose their parents too early in life I pity them but mostly thy are stronger and more worldly wise than others.
I believe those who depart look after and shower their blessings on their dear ones from wherever they are. This has been mostly proved right from my own observations - siva
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@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
7 Apr 17
@Shiva49 So true. And thank you very much! Appreciate it.
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@GooglePlus (3830)
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6 Apr 17
Honestly some people can't be replaced! Mom Dad are one of them!
It;s hard but I wish you will stood strong and try to be happy by remembering your good times with her.
Hugs!!!
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