Writing about a challenge I face.

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Good morning to everyone! I've been having the worse case of writers block, so I finally just googled a random writing prompt, and this was the idea I was given. Everyone has challenges, so it's not hard to write about that. I start today off by writing about my most recent confirmation of a hunch I've had for years. I've been officially diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. If you haven't heard of it... well, it's not fun. You live in constant fear, made up by your own mind, that people you care for will leave you. Sometimes, for the silliest reasons, sometimes, for legitimate reasons that would justify them leaving you. Your mood also changes at the drop of a hat, usually for reasons unknown. One instant, you'll be happy and laughing and enjoying life. Then, something will happen, usually something dumb, and you will question your very existence. (No, I'm not talking suicide, although that is a very real issue for those with BPD.) It's not unusual to confuse yourself with your own mood swings. I've also been diagnosed with PTSD, depression, and anxiety. All 4 of these things usually go hand in hand, was what I was told. And it makes sense. Unfortunately, there is no "magic pill" for BPD, only ones that will take the edge off. My doctors and I will probably start playing more with medication with this official diagnosis (it's only been 2 weeks)... and it scares me. Will I become even more alien in this world?