14) I'm Done With Everything !

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My life has come to the point from where I see nothing ahead. I'm a 20yo Science Student in a University and also preparing for the medical entrance exam to study medicine. I am getting failed continuously for 3 years in medical entrance exam. Also, because of preparing for medical entrance exam each year, I am unable to perform well in University exams also and the result is that my progress is continuously going low year by year. In University, Last year I had satisfied marks while this year, results aren't out yet and I'm beginning to think I might get fail this year. If I fail this year, this will be my first ever life failure in exams. Apart from this, I'm unable to pass the medical entrance exam since last 3 years. This exam is quite the toughest of all since only about 3000 people are selected every year out of 1.1 million people and increasing every year. I already know that to pass in this entrance I need to prepare by doing extreme level of hardwork for which I may have to drop university. On the other hand, If I want to score good in University exams to get Bachelor in Science degree, I need to drop the idea of medical entrance exam and focus only on it. I don't understand why my parents don't understand that I'm a human being, I can't handle both at the same time. Because of this unstability, my mind is not focus on either things. If I fail in University exams(when results will be out this month), I don't know what to do, because I still not be wanting to repeat my year. I'm literally crying each day. Whenever I talk about this to my parents, they just blame everything on me, my mobile, my things. My parents are good in everything except in this matter. I've tried talking out many times which results in being my fault. I don't want to give any medical entrance exam more and also if I get failed, I don't have much energy or will power to start it all over again. I'm tired of everything.