Confused !!
@_ge_ez_ (531)
India
May 29, 2017 8:31pm CST
These days I'm really confused. I'm happy at one time and sad on the other. I'm excited on one time and bored on the other.
The more I get happy , the more I feel sad. Hehe, I know it's crazy but it's just happening with me.
My daily routine also has changed a lot, sometimes I wake at 5 am while sometimes I sleep at 5 am. Sometimes I eat very much while sometimes i don't feel hungry at all.
In my locality, there is no one of my age with whom I can share, enjoy and talk everyday.
In this hot summer, I cannot go any far to meet with friends.
I try to reach out to friends at social media but they seem to be busy or not interested and that too mainly because they have friends in their locality and also girlfriends and boyfriends too.
I usually spend my time watching YouTube, surfing internet, talking to people from abroad like here on mylot. Yes that's all I do.
I feel sad because I don't know what my future will be but whatever it will be, I have to make. I'm still looking for my motivation, success and Everything.
I want a successful life with good friends like you all are. I hope one day I'll achieve it. Maybe today I'm in dark but one day I'll make my way out this darkness.
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@magnumopus (1644)
• Singapore
30 May 17
Your happy kind of sad. Yup it does happen to have mixed emotion.
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@magnumopus (1644)
• Singapore
30 May 17
@_ge_ez_ Alright that's your life my friend.
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@TiarasOceanView (70022)
• United States
30 May 17
I hear that you are sort of isolated and not close enough to any friends to visit.
I am sorry there is no one your age there, that has to be very tough.
I am guessing you are young then?
So glad that you can come here to discuss at least.
Know how you are as I am the same. I have moved so many times in life that no one has stayed in my life, friends or others you know.
I do have one grown son but that is all here.
Hope you can brighten the future!
And it is not crazy to feel like that, I understand.
And it is not crazy to feel like that, I understand.1 person likes this
@_ge_ez_ (531)
• India
30 May 17
You know you almost touched my heart. I'm almost 21 y.o. but my life is different from others. My friends? like me but they are not that much friendly to me as they are amongst themselves. Yes, I feel isolated in such environment.
I also don't like the topics on they talk. They always gossip about unusual topics everyday.
I want to live my life like a rich and successful person but I don't see any way or anyone who is or are with me in this journey. Everyone wants an ordinary life. They don't dream big or creative. They always spend their time looking at memes, sarcasm pages, etc.
I really feel alone when there is no one to talk about serious things, be my friend and talk to me on the things I want to do or on the things I'm serious about.
That is why I decided? to stay away from everyone.
I am trying to move on from everyone because I don't see anyone permanent in my life. They come in my life for little time and then they leave.
I'm sorry for this long message but my feeling were flooding out.
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@TiarasOceanView (70022)
• United States
30 May 17
@_ge_ez_ Oh to be sure you do not need to apologize, that is what we are here for is to discuss things that concern us together here. It is fine and many people talk here about serious issues. It is a good place to do so as it is welcoming.
I must say too that it is refreshing also to know that someone is not just interested in silly memes and social media. I get it, I really do.
That is the beauty of myLot.
Yet you are young, but you have high goals. This is good. It must be very frustrating as well as no one is on that level near you there. I wish you could meet up with like minded people.
I do admire you for having these goals in mind.
You have the right idea.
But too, when one stands out from the crowd as you do, real life connections are difficult.
You will find your way while others are still being foolish
Yet you are young, but you have high goals. This is good. It must be very frustrating as well as no one is on that level near you there. I wish you could meet up with like minded people.
I do admire you for having these goals in mind.
You have the right idea.
But too, when one stands out from the crowd as you do, real life connections are difficult.
You will find your way while others are still being foolish1 person likes this
@_ge_ez_ (531)
• India
30 May 17
@TiarasOceanView hehe, thanks alot, I do feel motivated a little bit now and refreshed too.You are an experienced person so it's good to hear some advice from you. I'm really glad that you are here at this point in my life to advice me. Btw I never forget people who are always there with me at bad and good times. Thanks for your precious time.
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@MALUSE (69373)
• Germany
30 May 17
@_ge_ez_ Almost 21! Incredible. :-)
I'm older than your grandmothers and think that I can give you some pieces of advice. Switch off your computer for some hours. Get off your chair and go out! You should be ashamed of writing such a sentence, "I usually spend my time watching YouTube, surfing internet, talking to people from abroad like here on mylot. Yes that's all I do."
Find a single person or an organisation who/which needs help from a young person. Do something useful. Stop thinking only about yourself.
Doing something useful for other people may also help you find out what you're good at and may lead you to a job or to a subject you can study at uni.
Stop thinking about darkness. It seems to me that you're wallowing in your own sorrows and kind of enjoying your horrible situation. You're obviously much better off than millions of young people your age. Have you ever thought of that?
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@_ge_ez_ (531)
• India
30 May 17
@MALUSE oh wow, that was an incredible advice. It seems you are more energetic than me. But in really loved every word you wrote. It makes me motivated more and realised my worthyness in this world.
Yes, nomatter how sad I am, the good thing about me is I always keep moving forward. I'm searching to volunteer in some community but it's hard to find in my city and that's why I am searching outside. I have found some opportunities and I think that I might get to volunteer there.
You just came like a eraser and rubbedy all worries. Haha. Thanks alot for that.
I'm really aonekuch glad to meet people like you. This is the power of global connections. 
@_ge_ez_ (531)
• India
30 May 17
Hehe, no not that young. I'm almost 21.
Actually, my concern is related to have a good life in future. Whenever I think about my future plans and relate with what I'm doing now, it makes me worried. Otherwise, I'm always a happy and enthusiastic person.
@_ge_ez_ (531)
• India
6 Jun 17
Hahahha
Nooo
There must be someone if there's love.
Why do you think so ?
Nooo
There must be someone if there's love.
Why do you think so ?