I'm on fire!

By Toni
@toniganzon (72281)
Philippines
August 31, 2017 12:25am CST
The truth is, I'm not. I'm not in the mood for anything. I'm a mess, emotionally. I'm facing a battle deep inside of me. However, I can't show what a mess I am in front of my employees and clients. I must have a clear mind and have to solve whatever problems are there in the office today. I have to perform. I don't bring whatever personal problems I have to work. I don't let it affect my performance. I don't let it bother me, even though deep inside I want to scream, I want to cry, I want peace. But what will happen to the company that I so worked hard to be where it is now if I would suddenly show the people that I could collapse that easily? I have to be strong. I need to remain strong.
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@JustBhem (70555)
• Davao, Philippines
31 Aug 17
You have to be the Toni that you are, the strong and the brave Toni that you know. We are just here to cheer you up.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
1 Sep 17
Thanks Bhem. I'm trying my best. I went to the company dinner last night to welcome our new recruits. I stayed strong but I had to leave early because of my headache and I wasn't really in the mood to party.
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@JustBhem (70555)
• Davao, Philippines
1 Sep 17
@toniganzon And did you have a good rest? I hope you have.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
1 Sep 17
@JustBhem I am having it at the moment.
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@DianneN (247186)
• United States
1 Sep 17
I'm so sorry you feel such angst, but you are correct in not bringing it to work with you. Hugs to you and hope you feel much better.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
1 Sep 17
Thanks for the hugs. It's a holiday today here so I'm not doing anything for the day. I just want to relax and enjoy the day with my son.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
1 Sep 17
@DianneN Thank you.
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@DianneN (247186)
• United States
1 Sep 17
@toniganzon Good! Enjoy your day with your son and happy holiday to you.
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• United States
1 Sep 17
Sending all good wishes and light to you Toni to get through this day..one day at a time my friend. You are an amazing woman to come so far and build what you have. You know the importance of staying strong and I commend you on that. I know this is not easy at all, but I also know you can do it. I hope there is nothing so bad going on Toni..if there is, and if there is anything I can do for you, please let me know. Remember, we are also here for you to lean on.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
1 Sep 17
Thank you so much. There are some problems in my life that I'd like to resolve on my own. But I know that my friends here in mylot can help me by cheering me up.
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• United States
1 Sep 17
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@TheHorse (218474)
• Walnut Creek, California
31 Aug 17
Yep, it's a good thing to remain professional at work, no matter what is happening at home or inside.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
1 Sep 17
I try my best and I don't want my personal life to affect my work.
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@ridingbet (66854)
• Philippines
31 Aug 17
i believe strong women should not show they are weak in some instances. i am a strong woman. even here at home, when i am quiet despite my sister being so stressed out, they will know i am not feeling well. no need for me to tell them, and they know. i also don't cry easily now. i have developed that 'skill' of letting a problem be light and not toxic, because it can be solved readily anyway.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
31 Aug 17
That's good to know. I have always been like this. Never bringing any personal problems at work. I value my work ethics too much.
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@ridingbet (66854)
• Philippines
1 Sep 17
@toniganzon that is what i always tell my students to "not bring their problems at home, in the ward. leave their problems at the gates of their houses, and once their duty is done, they have to leave the problems in the ward, at the lobby, and receive their house problems once they are home".
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@andriaperry (116936)
• Anniston, Alabama
31 Aug 17
Its all acting! you got this! Put that smile on and do your job. Then when the day is over, go scream!
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
31 Aug 17
I think I'm a really good actress. I'm good at pretending I'm ok. I deserve an award.
@AmbiePam (92401)
• United States
3 Sep 17
I am so sorry you are struggling so badly. I am glad you can express yourself here even if you can't let go at work.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
4 Sep 17
It's over now. Fixed everything.
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@allen0187 (58582)
• Philippines
10 Sep 17
You. Got. This.
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@allen0187 (58582)
• Philippines
11 Sep 17
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
10 Sep 17
I did. I got over it after two days. Thank you my twin brother.
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@1hopefulman (45120)
• Canada
1 Sep 17
Life can be though at times and we need to be tough. There are places where we need to put on a brave face and do what we have to do. There are places and times when we can open up a bit and let out enough out so that we don't explode. Hopefully the troubles will be brief!
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
2 Sep 17
It's over. Things are ok now.
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@kixsh101 (2105)
• Philippines
1 Sep 17
Whatever you are facing right now, know that it will pass. Things and happenings are all temporary. Cheer up!
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
1 Sep 17
I know. Just one of those days.
@velvet53 (22534)
• Palisade, Colorado
5 Sep 17
It is hard to have battles that you are dealing with but it is also good not to take them to work. So many people take their personal problems with them no matter where they go. I am glad that you know better than to take your personal problems to work. That shows that you care about your job.
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@velvet53 (22534)
• Palisade, Colorado
5 Sep 17
@toniganzon That is the best way to be. I try not to let things get to me but I do have my moments.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
6 Sep 17
@velvet53 WE all have our moments.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
5 Sep 17
I always care in everything that I do. Sometimes I care too much. I try to be professional as much as I can. However, I don't dwell on problems too long. I am over it now.
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• United States
31 Aug 17
I don't like bringing personal business with me also when I worked. Pull it together and be strong while at work! Easier said than done but you can do it! I hope all gets better with the problem you're having.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
31 Aug 17
I've always told my employees never let your personal issues get in the way of your work. Especially now that I have to take care of a lot of people and they depend on me. I can't be weak.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
31 Aug 17
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• United States
31 Aug 17
@toniganzon Yeah, or they will use your weak side to get at you. It's important to be strong especially when you're a role model and leadership of the company.
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@marlina (154131)
• Canada
1 Sep 17
You sound like a very strong woman and I know you will find a solution without breaking down.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
1 Sep 17
I'm ok now and things are back to normal again.
@acelawrites (19272)
• Philippines
31 Aug 17
You are very professional; not allowing personal problems interfere with your work.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
1 Sep 17
I try my best to be. I can't let others suffer because of my own problem.
@Shiva49 (26661)
• Singapore
1 Sep 17
I worked for others and since I played crucial roles I had to more than put my best foot forward all the time. My personal issues were relegated but I am none the worse for such attitude. A positive countenance helps everyone - siva
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@teamfreak16 (43418)
• Denver, Colorado
31 Aug 17
I hope it gets better for you.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
31 Aug 17
I hope the same, Scott.
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@thelme55 (76851)
• Germany
31 Aug 17
You are a strong woman. Take care of yourself not to have burnout.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
31 Aug 17
Thank you. I will.
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@ms1864 (6885)
• Bangalore, India
31 Aug 17
YEAH!! You can do this!!
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
31 Aug 17
It's all about the attitude!
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• Kisumu, Kenya
31 Aug 17
its good that you have discovered your self now its time to take control of yourself to let it control you but control it. be strong
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
31 Aug 17
I have discovered myself a long time ago.
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• Nairobi, Kenya
31 Aug 17
I like your post. I also never let my problems interfere with what I am going to do when I go out. Be it school or work. Though sometimes our eyes betray us and we cannot pretend to be happy everyday.
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@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
31 Aug 17
True. I may have shown my people my smile but if they knew me well they could have seen how lonely my eyes were.
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