Suddenly Alone
By RasmaSandra
@RasmaSandra (79886)
Daytona Beach, Florida
September 13, 2017 2:05pm CST
After my husband died on August 17 I was wondering how I would go on alone. Well I do have my cat Sid just wish he could talk. Since that time we have experienced a lot in the healing process. I have a sixth sense and a real belief in the world beyond. While I am getting used to my new situation I have been given a lot of comfort.
Last week a clock on my dresser flew off onto the floor and didn’t break I realized right away I had been contacted and was very much relieved. As I picked up the clock I thanked him for giving me this sign that he was here. We had watched the movie “Ghost” many times so he knew what kind of sign to give me that would get my full attention. I have an unusual habit of collecting bird feathers and putting them in a vase I have collected many over the years. If my husband went anywhere and found a feather he brought it back home to me. Today I finally went out shopping and to lunch with his daughter Mara feeling much more like myself than I have in awhile. When I returned home right at the garden gate was a lovely bird feather and I knew once again I had been given a sign and it was wonderful.
Sid as a cat I know can see spirits. He too has seen his Papa most often in the living room downstairs where my husband liked to work on his laptop. Sid enjoys spending time there and I just can tell by his peacefulness that he has accepted this new reality. He is going about his usual business now and eating like a horse. So you see we are going to survive.
While in the city today I bought two books for company Gone Astray by Michelle Davies and NYPD Red by James Patterson. I also purchased some crayons and pastels to get my creativity flowing. My writing and poetry helps complete the cycle and I am content being with me, myself and I. In the photo you can see Mara’s selfie of the two of us at lunch.
When you lose someone you love how do you find contentment and peace?
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@1hopefulman (45120)
• Canada
13 Sep 17
I get as close to God as I can
Get busy helping women and men
I know that by helping others
My own pain it smothers
I think of cheerful things
Play music, the joy it brings
Think of the future paradise
When all will be well and nice
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@RasmaSandra (79886)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
14 Sep 17
That is the way to be @1jopefulman you are so right. I was thinking that I would not want to listen to my favorite music for a long time due to some of the memories but now I am actually looking forward to putting on some of my favorite because I know they'll bring comfort and I know the Lord is with me. Blessings to you.
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@vandana7 (100288)
• India
14 Sep 17
@andriaperry I wish my mom would. I feel the need for her at times. There was a lady here, from somewhere in the Caribbean. She said she can help me contact my mom. Every time I came into contact with her even on the post, it felt like strange magnetic or whatever you want to call it, surround us as if I was in some sort of cocoon, in which we two were only there across the oceans. I tried several times, getting in and out of the post to see if it feels that way or was it only my imagination. It felt that way, every time. It took a lot of rational thinking to step out of it. You see, if my mom is born again, and is living somewhere, she is younger than me. Much younger. I would be disturbing her present life if I contacted her. Hardly something she deserves. I walked away.
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@RasmaSandra (79886)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
14 Sep 17
If you truly believe it is not a scary thing at all it is a very comforting thing and nice to know they are around they loved us in life and love us even after and forever @vandana7
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@TiarasOceanView (70022)
• United States
14 Sep 17
This is so wonderful to hear Sandra that Papa is with you there.
So comforting.
And that is a lovely photo, is this his daughter there?
I hope things continue on the up and up for you and Sid.
Yes I take comfort in things little signs also of those that had passed on.
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@RasmaSandra (79886)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
14 Sep 17
It is a comfort that my husband is around and I am hoping with time there will be more contact. In the photo that is Mara his daughter. He was a great Papa to Sid and I know Sid has seen him and that has comforted the cat. We are getting along fine and will be alright @TiarasOceanView
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@KristenH (33386)
• Cuyahoga Falls, Ohio
13 Sep 17
So sorry for your loss. When I lost my mother three years ago, I took a break from writing and slowly concentrating on editing. I just took time for myself to heal and grieve. I did nap a lot and meditate a couple of times. I did a lot of reading too.
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@RasmaSandra (79886)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
14 Sep 17
My phase is now to keep writing and doing my poetry to that I am adding more reading and coloring which I greatly enjoy @KristenH
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@KristenH (33386)
• Cuyahoga Falls, Ohio
14 Sep 17
@RasmaSandra That's a good plan. It would help you keep your mind off the pain.
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@andriaperry (116936)
• Anniston, Alabama
14 Sep 17
I enjoyed all 4 of the NYPD Red novels. I also have this sense, that you have and I would also know when to tell when someone was still with me.
I do not talk much about the things I see because people will think I am insane, I see A LOT.
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@RasmaSandra (79886)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
14 Sep 17
You are exactly like me so I understand and my whole family was like that so I know I am never really alone and it is the contact moments that make me smile @andriaperry blessings to you.
@Happy2BeMe (99380)
• Canada
13 Sep 17
I am so sorry to hear of the passing of your husband. If you posted about it I am so sorry that I missed it. It is so difficult to lose a loved one. I can only imagine how it must feel to lose your husband. It is nice that he is sending signs to let you know that he is right there with you, watching over you. My mom and dad often sends me signs and I find it very comforting. Sending hugs to you. 
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@RasmaSandra (79886)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
14 Sep 17
Yes the signs and the knowing that someone is near is the greatest feeling @Happy2BeMe I did post about this before in my post Goodbye My Love. Hugs and blessings to you
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@Happy2BeMe (99380)
• Canada
14 Sep 17
@RasmaSandra sorry I missed it I will go read it now
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@bystander (2292)
• Philippines
14 Sep 17
So, you have it all set. And by the signs you've shared, you will know how "not to live alone" as you know full well that your beloved husband "is still around."
So, when you asked: When you lose someone you love how do you find contentment and peace?, I would say, you have it all figured out.
@kobesbuddy (78882)
• East Tawas, Michigan
14 Sep 17
I had perfect peace, after first my Father and then six years later, Mom passed away. Yes, I do miss them, but living in their home, I feel their presence in every room!:)
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@ilocosboy (45156)
• Philippines
14 Sep 17
One of the hardest part of life that we can never evade. Yeah I think what we should have is faith and never lost hope that one day we'll meet again.
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@cmdean91 (5)
• United States
14 Sep 17
When I have lost someone I love, I find them again in my heart... I know their presence never leaves me... I know in one passing moment, I'm that much closer to them. I feel there is more to living than this, and I know the ones I love have never left... because energy can never be created or destroyed, only transformed.
