I make sure I don’t hurt my mother
@marapplestiffy (2182)
Philippines
November 11, 2017 8:50pm CST
I’m not in the best shape of mind right now. I get agitated with little things that never used to bother me.
Like my mother’s never ending babble...It makes me want to shout sometimes and no she doesn’t nag, she’s just used to telling me stories of how her day went...very detailed stories...I live with my mother because we’re still saving up for out own place and it’s definitely way practical than renting room.
So just seconds ago she was sharing her experiences about the seminar she attended yesterday...and I was doing my project in taskmasters and grading my students while also typing responses here... the longer she talked the annoying it seemed to me.
So I had to stop what I was doing and tried to calm my mind while drowning out her voice but pretending to listen...sometimes I feel like such a bad person for feeling annoyed with my mother who has never done anything bad to me...but I try and console myself that at least I make sure I don’t show it because I know it will break her heart...
Does this ever happen to you too? Is it better to pretend so I won’t hurt her? Or should I be honest and break heart?
She’s already 55years old and she gets easily hurt with anything I do that for her would seem like I don’t love or want her anymore.
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@marguicha (222890)
• Chile
12 Nov 17
Do you have a room where you can go to work?
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@marapplestiffy (2182)
• Philippines
12 Nov 17
Yes, I do have my own room but she’s used to just barging in when my husband isn’t around.
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@JustBhem (70555)
• Davao, Philippines
12 Nov 17
I also have issues with my own Mother and to be honest we are not on good terms.
It was all started when I got sick 3 years ago.
I found out that she is irresponsible Mother and selfish.
She always has her moments every day by yelling at my Brothers and babble most of the time.
@marapplestiffy (2182)
• Philippines
12 Nov 17
That’s sad, I actually don’t have any grudges with my mother because she’s the greatest that’s why I feel like such a bad person for getting annoyed with her...
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@marapplestiffy (2182)
• Philippines
12 Nov 17
@JustBhem I know that’s why I always try to be a good daughter too, I used to be horrible though... I wouldn’t want to be that person again...
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@JustBhem (70555)
• Davao, Philippines
12 Nov 17
@marapplestiffy
Well, I do have for my Mother because she was never a Mother to me. You are very lucky because you have a great mom. I envy you.
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@BloggerDi (3113)
• United States
12 Nov 17
I think it's normal to get frustrated with any roommate sometimes.People have different plans, and you can't read each other's minds. It doesn't mean you're a bad person, just human.
But I think that venting here is better than hurting your mother.
Learn from this experience. The next time you need to work on something, maybe you could say something like "Okay Mom, I'm going to work on this now. I need 30 minutes of quiet time, because I get distracted too easily!"
Do you think that might help?
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@marapplestiffy (2182)
• Philippines
12 Nov 17
Thanks for your insight. I don’t think she’d understand though because I used to be okay with it, I mean ever since I can remember she and I would talk while I’m working with something, she used to call me all the time when I was aways for college and I would tell her that I’m working on a school report and to just continue talking, and when I started working here in the province she would do the same and it didn’t really bothered me but its just recently that I get irritated with any noise when I’m working...so I’ll just continue holding it in I guess
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