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I can't remember my last post. Work has pretty much conquered this past year of my life. It wasn't at all smooth-sailing. Sure I did become a team leader of the writers and researchers but I messed up a lot for months. I was having the hardest time following instructions. I even got to the point that logging into work made me so nervous and scared for being called out a lot. I had to watch motivational videos to calm myself down. I was fine when I was just one of the writers until they made me leader. Now, I just feel I'd hit a wall, like I'm floating on stagnant waters. I used to love this job but now, I feel like I'm trapped. Embarrassingly so, I'm only there for the salary now. I realized that I don't like being under someone's authority. This is actually an ecommerce company where there are board of directors and a general manager. I can't be myself anymore, and I don't get to chat with my coworkers like I used to. While I am grateful that I was able to surpass my money problems because of the company, I think it would be best for me to move on.