I am over it!

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I have come to a realization: I don't have to be perfect. I am so tired. I have 6 kids, several chronic illnesses, and work my butt off everyday to try to get my family back on its feet. My youngest is one, and that means everything that I can to do to financially support this family must be while she is sleeping or busy (which isn't often). I am sick of people judging me, especially when I need help. I'm not lazy. I wake up at 5:30 every morning to get my kids ready for school, even when I hurt so bad that I want to scream. I don't have my teenagers to help with my 3 youngest ones because they having to stay with family or friends because we are currently staying with my mom in her RV and there isn't room. There are many moments when I feel like I can't do this anymore and it is never going to get better, especially because I'm sick. But, I am going to fight. I don't care what anyone thinks about me. Yes, I let my children dye their hair funky colors. It really angered me when I recently shared a post about it and I was met with so much judgement! Why do people think they can judge me for something so silly. I've been dying my hair since I was 14 and I haven't had any ill "effects" from it. It is just hair! It isn't like I'm letting my kids get tattoos. It grows back and it makes them feel good about themselves. They have had a very hard life. We have been met with great struggles and I am going to be the last person to not let them express themselves. I love my kids more than life itself, and they are good people. I put my heart and soul into it. I have been raising children for 20 years, and I have about 16 1/2 more to go until they are all adults. I think I'm doing a find job. They are fed, clothed, and we aren't sleeping in a car. There is always some type of roof over their head. My oldest daughter has a 4.66 GPA, top `1% scores on SAT and ACT tests, is a Thespian, and has many scholarships. She is working hard to better her situation, and soon she'll be at college pursuing her dreams. I know her and I have had our problems, but we always work them out. All of my kids are smart, talented, and capable of living their dreams. I am proud to be their mother and to have raised them. Finally, I have some dr appointments today, but I have a long to do list, as well. I'm working hard on my blog, so that one day, I can make a full-time income at home, and my children can have a better life. I want them to see that I can get our life back on track and we can all be safe and home again.