Droppingin to say hello

@cyberrat (204)
Portsmouth, Ohio
January 24, 2018 4:36pm CST
Ive been away for a long time. Coming back to get my feet wet and check out how this site is going..I haven't written much over the last couple years Ive been away caring for my mom. She passed away Jan 1. Im finding myself alittle lost and not sure where Im going from here but hoping that coming here and writing might just keep me a little sane. The year started off awful Im hoping that things get better but dealing with grief is not an easy road for me to be going down at this point. So I hope putting it out there will help me deal with all these crazy emotions Im feeling. Ive thrown myself in to the adult coloring books to deal with the stress. Does anyone else here do them?
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@sallypup (61094)
• Centralia, Washington
24 Jan 18
Hugs for you from me. Its going to take a long time for you to not feel so terrible. Its a normal thing cause part of your heart is lost. My condolences.
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@cyberrat (204)
• Portsmouth, Ohio
24 Jan 18
Thank you...it truly is..
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@shaggin (72131)
• United States
24 Jan 18
There is another member here who does the adult color books and posts photos of them. Can't think of her name to tag her though. I am so sorry to hear your grief over your mothers passing. Welcome back and I hope you find the comfort here your looking for. I know mylot has helped keep me sane at times
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@cyberrat (204)
• Portsmouth, Ohio
24 Jan 18
Thank you. I will do a tag search and see what I find. Its good to hear it has help you stay sane...Maybe there is hope or me :)
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@PainsOnSlate (21852)
• Canada
24 Jan 18
I have really missed you and I'm so sorry about your mom. The important thing to understand is you need to grieve and cry and yell, throw things and feel awful... and know its normal. You are allowed to grieve so do it, no matter how old your mother was, you will remember her and miss here more times than you can imagine. Big hugs to you and I hope to see you here more often.
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@cyberrat (204)
• Portsmouth, Ohio
24 Jan 18
Thank you!! ebay had it for under4 a lot cheaper than the library fines I rack up when i forget to return books :( think I remember you witng about it before when a friend of yours passed away. I had tried to find a copy in the past with no luck now ebay has a ton of them so if anyone else needs a copy
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• Canada
25 Jan 18
@cyberrat I suggested the library because they can find anything. I've never purchased anything from ebay - if its cheap, buy it, you might not like the book or the woman who wrote it, but she and I seemed to meld together when I was grieving the loss of two and dealing with a 4 year old grieving. That was heart breaking... Big hugs to you! And I have suggested to many when grieving on line.
@Plethos (13581)
• United States
25 Jan 18
sorry for your loss. i know quite a few adults who like to color the adult coloring books. they each say the same thing, its a stress reliever and temporary distraction. a way to clear their minds.
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@Plethos (13581)
• United States
25 Jan 18
@cyberrat - do you use crayons? color pencils? other? a couple i know like to use different techniques.
@cyberrat (204)
• Portsmouth, Ohio
25 Jan 18
i enjoy them but then get stressed because I color like a 5 year old LOL Im a prefectionest that can not reach prefection in what I enjoy doing
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@JohnRoberts (109846)
• Los Angeles, California
25 Jan 18
Welcome back to myLot.
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@rebelann (112876)
• El Paso, Texas
7 Feb 21
Both of you have disappeared from Mylot, I miss you
@Hannihar (130218)
• Israel
10 Jul 18
@cyberrat I am glad you felt you could come here for comfort. I am so sorry about your loss. It is very hard. Just do what you have to do and come here when you feel like it. Do you have anyone to talk to about your grief and loss?
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@rebelann (112876)
• El Paso, Texas
7 Feb 21
I wonder the same thing, I hope she will come back one day
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@Hannihar (130218)
• Israel
8 Feb 21
@rebelann I hope she will too.
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@rebelann (112876)
• El Paso, Texas
24 Jan 18
My condolences, my mom passed the day before thanksgiving in 2015, I didn't write much about it but it was a tremendous help to be able to clown around on Mylot. It is never easy to lose our parents, hopefully time will soften the hurt.
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@rebelann (112876)
• El Paso, Texas
25 Jan 18
I know exactly what you mean @cyberrat Maybe in time it will get easier.
@cyberrat (204)
• Portsmouth, Ohio
25 Jan 18
I think when it happens during a holiday it makes it worse because every year you are supose to be excited about the holidays but how can you and I already dislike holidays.
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