A Year Later!
By Mandy
@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
Canada
January 31, 2018 4:42pm CST
Wow! I vanished, yet still have not forgotten about myLot!
A few things have changed in a year. Some good, and bad. I'm still with my girlfriend who I wrote a post about on here in 2016. "I Found Love". So that's nice.
As for myself personally as a person? I've been battling some demons. Anxiety. Has taken over me past few months and I've been trying to fight it. I've always struggled with it off and on. But lately it's been crippling. To the point where I have been agoraphobic. Not who I used to be at all. Hate it.
Doctor of coursed tossed antidepressants in my face. Made me worse instead of better so I'm tapering off. That's always fun. Withdrawals, woo! Even when you go slowly off them, you still get the effect of those nice brain zaps, etc.
Besides that, I have more to say but no point writing it all here. I'll post more!
Good to write on here again though. Always miss it. Not sure if this is still the popular writing site to go to, or if there is another by now? Either way! Enjoy your evening everyone!
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18 responses
@DesirousDreamer (34776)
• Peoria, Arizona
1 Feb 18
I'm sorry you have been dealing with so much anxiety, I know your pain. But at least the positive is that you are still with someone you love and you are back here with people who will understand and comfort you!
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@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
1 Feb 18
Awww, I appreciate this comment. Thank you! I'm sorry that you have to know the pain of anxiety though. Isn't a fun one eh?
@DesirousDreamer (34776)
• Peoria, Arizona
1 Feb 18
@x0MandyLynn0x It is never a boring day, I will tell you that haha
@tammys85 (30066)
• Baltimore, Maryland
7 Feb 18
@x0MandyLynn0x I'm glad she's been helpful! :)
What's the natural way? I'm legit asking. I've been medicated for anxiety since late 2011.
@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
1 Feb 18
Good to see you again! Thanks a bunch! She's been helpful!
It does, for sure! Hate it...me too! I'm thinking about going the natural way. Hoping that works out.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
1 Feb 18
Good to see you again. =) I will definitely be praying for you. I am sure that is not easy to live with at all.
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@LovingMyBabies (85288)
• Valdosta, Georgia
1 Feb 18
@x0MandyLynn0x Of course I am!! =)
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@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
1 Feb 18
Ohh hey Jennifer! I remember you! Good to see you're still on here! I'm seeing a lot of familiar faces, that's for sure!
It isn't, but thank you, I appreciate the comment!
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@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
1 Feb 18
@LovingMyBabies Hahah! Well it's good to see you stuck around! 
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@Courtlynn (67085)
• United States
1 Feb 18
Didn't know you then as I'm just shy of a year here. But welcome back. And hope to see you around more..
Sorry about the anxiety and meds.
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@Courtlynn (67085)
• United States
1 Feb 18
@x0MandyLynn0x I've had a good time here for the most part. Yes, there's alot of awesome people here.
Yes it is. I deal with it too.
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@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
1 Feb 18
@Courtlynn I'm sorry you have to deal with it. Hope things get better for ya!
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@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
1 Feb 18
Aww, well it's good to meet ya for the first time on here Courtney! Hope you have been enjoying the site? People here are pretty awesome eh!?
Thank you! Anxiety is a pain that's for sure..
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@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
31 Jan 18
I agree! Hopefully I'll feel better...soon!
Oh yeah? Is it the "Vachon" part? If so, makes sense. My Family did wrestle back in the days. My Grandfather is "The Butcher" (Paul Vachon) My aunts also wrestled. Vivian and Luna. And my uncle "Mad Dogg" (Maurice) ! 
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@Plethos (13581)
• United States
31 Jan 18
@x0MandyLynn0x - serious? 
lol im a huge wrestling mark.
lol im a huge wrestling mark.1 person likes this
@taciaelisepeace (1809)
• United States
1 Feb 18
You two are so cute together
. That's good that you found love. Anxiety is the worst and anti depressants are the worst thing you can give someone, that just creates another problem. I have been battling with anxiety lately. Its hard. I hope you are able to get back to normal soo !
. That's good that you found love. Anxiety is the worst and anti depressants are the worst thing you can give someone, that just creates another problem. I have been battling with anxiety lately. Its hard. I hope you are able to get back to normal soo !1 person likes this
@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
1 Feb 18
Aww thank you! Glad you think so! I agree! haha! Love has always been a struggle for me to find. I was one of those types of people who would be like, "I will never find love! Single forever!"..I guess I'm not always right. ha!
I agree, I dislike both of them. Yet so many of us suffer with one, or both. Terrible!
I'm sorry to hear you have to deal with it too. I guess we both have to go through this, and change our outlook eh? It's good to realize it's fixable though! There's hope!! 
@taciaelisepeace (1809)
• United States
1 Feb 18
@x0MandyLynn0x Aw I bet, that just makes you cherish your relationship even more :) I wish you two and amazing year!
I agree there is hope. While it won't go away forever there are different ways to manage it. I used to abuse different substances to deal with it. Now that I have been completely sober for a yr and a half I have learned manage it by either meditating, music, and even working out helps :)
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@taciaelisepeace (1809)
• United States
1 Feb 18
@x0MandyLynn0x I know people take CBD for pain and other things. I never thought of taking it for anxiety. Ill have to look into that. I know cannabis with both THC and CBD makes me really anxious both sativa and indica strains. So I will look!
@LeaPea2417 (37355)
• Toccoa, Georgia
1 Feb 18
It is good to see you back here! I am sorry you are struggling with anxiety. After you get off the antidepressants for good, I hope you can overcome the anxiety with no medication at all.
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@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
1 Feb 18
Thanks a bunch! I really hope so too. Today will be day 3 off of my antidepressants completely. Not feeling as bad today. Although sleep seems to be an issue more. But I'm hoping I can find ways to control it better without relying on toxic prescriptions.
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@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
4 Feb 18
Appreciate the comment. And thank you, I hate having it. Hope you're well?
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@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
4 Feb 18
I've tried klonopin. When I would come down from them I felt more depressed. Which was odd. Didn't like that feeling at all.
@Morleyhunt (21744)
• Canada
1 Feb 18
Hello Mandy...it's been a long time.
It's nice to see you...hope that you get those demons under control.
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@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
1 Feb 18
Heyyy Morley! Another familiar face and name!! It has eh!?
It's nice to see you too! I'm hoping the same. Time will help. I guess we all go through crazy stages in our lives eh? haha!
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@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
4 Feb 18
Thank you! Haha! Yeah, it actually is a snapchat shot, good guess! I love taking pictures with her.
@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
1 Feb 18
Well, welcome to myLot! It's really a great place to be! Great community here! Thanks a bunch!
Hope your day is fantastic!
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@mezvinsky (406)
• Abuja, Nigeria
2 Feb 18
Nice one but you can never go back to your past. See you at the top.
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@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
4 Feb 18
Agree, I try to avoid my past. And focus on the present and future!
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@averygirl72 (37845)
• Philippines
7 Feb 18
I'm struggling with demons like anxiety too. I'm doing my best to correct my thinking to fight anxiety.
@x0MandyLynn0x (1056)
• Canada
31 Jan 18
Same to you Alfredo! Yeah, slowly but surely. I did, it's been great with her!
Yep, that photo is of us! Hope your night is a great one!
Hope your night is a great one!
@Hannihar (130218)
• Israel
5 Feb 18
It is still a great site. Sorry about the things you are dealing with. Come here so we can cheer you up. Since I never met you before I will say welcome back and come back more often.
@spiderdust (14760)
• San Jose, California
8 Feb 18
Brain zaps -- were you on Cymbalta? I hated that medication! It was the worst thing ever.
