Post Partum Depression

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I had suffered from Post Partum Depression for 3 years. Boy was it hard. I like most women have read about it in magazines, reading it in other womens’ words. Never giving it too much thought as of course these things don’t happen to me....... Yeh I was so wrong. 5 years ago I gave birth to my beautiful baby boy. The whole pregnancy was tough. In and out of the doctors and a few visits to hospital for oxygen. The birth was horrendous and my anesthetist lies to me about the epidural being put in. He tried 3 times and 3 times he failed but told me on the last go that it was in. I was in terrible pain but not stupid. Anyway I had no choice but to get on with it. I should say that this was my second child, so I was familiar with the child bearing process. So after many long hours I finally gave birth to my son. It was wonderful to hold him in my arms after speaking to him through my belly for 9 months and a bit. Then after a few days being at home my whole mood changed. I wasn’t happy like I used to be. I loved my son but I didn’t understand this sudden onset of depression. I went to my GP and she confirmed it was Post Partum Depression. I was gutted. She put me on medication. It took forever to work. Also I attended counseling but I always felt so stupid talking about it. Thankfully I had/have a very supportive husband who helped me get through it as best he could. I never realised how hard those 3 years were going to be and how alone I felt. I’d never wish that for any woman. Just wanted to put my experience out there. It’s more talked about now and accepted, but I know personally it was still difficult to take on board and to speak about. Just want other women to know that help is out there and there is light at the end of what may seem like a seriously long and dark tunnel.