Can It Get Any Worse???
@teresatrotter (4073)
Jacksonville, Florida
March 26, 2018 11:29pm CST
Went to the dentist today. My teeth are so bad, I have to lose all of them. My medicaid won't pay to replace them.
If they try (and it is not a guarantee)...they might be able to save two on the top and two on the bottom; so they can put partials in. They are not comfortable, and can pop out when eating.
I had one years ago...and it was hideous looking.
Even if I get them...they are going to cost $700. I don't have that kind of money.
I am a good candidate for implant dentures, but they don't do them at the poor man's clinic.
In a short while, I will have no teeth. I won't be able to eat an apple, meat, pretty much most solid foods, unless I swallow everything whole. And that will eventually create digestive problems. I will only be able to eat baby food, or soups for the rest of my life.
The one thing i had left in this world to enjoy was my cooking. I won't have much left after my teeth are gone.
How much more am I going to be punished on this earth?
I could not have a family, and get married.
I lost my good health.
I lost all my material possessions. I have no memories to look back on. Family photos all gone.
I lost my career, and good income.
All my family is gone.
Now...I will never be able to smile again. I will look like a freak.
Please...don't tell me chin up. If you have not walked in my shoes, you have no idea what it feels like.
What's next? My eyes? Hearing? Legs? Arms? Life? There is not much left, for me to lose.
Why didn't God let me lose everything at once, if I had to lose it all? This little by little...is just plain torture. Just as soon as I get past one thing...something else happens.
I am so severely depressed. I don't have any hope anymore..
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@dragon54u (31634)
• United States
27 Mar 18
I can understand why you feel so hopeless! I know what it is like to have no insurance and not be able to afford to take care of myself. I lost my insurance when the new insurance laws took effect in 2012 and can't afford any. I live with health problems, too, that I can do nothing about.
I won't tell you to cheer up because you need to have yourself a pity party right now. It's therapeutic, I swear it is! Every so often when everything has me so down that I wonder how much more I have to endure I just crawl into bed and cry for awhile. Once I cried for days. But then you start to feel better because you've expressed that frustration and sorrow, not all at once but it happens.
Then is when I start writing down my problems and possible solutions. Having a plan on paper helps a lot. It also shows me that I am not helpless as I thought but can do something, no matter how little, to solve some of my problems. And discovering that little bit of power gives me something to build on.
So my advice is to have a few drinks if you drink, have a good cry for as long as it takes to cry yourself out, then see what you can do about regaining some control over your life. You will probably find more than you think.
@teresatrotter (4073)
• Jacksonville, Florida
28 Mar 18
I wish I could afford it...because I would have a few drinks. LOL Thank you so much for what you said. You really understand what I am going through. I appreciate you not rebuking me, and allowing me my crying time.
If there was a way... I would have you send me a drink through the internet. LOL
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@teresatrotter (4073)
• Jacksonville, Florida
28 Mar 18
Good for you for having the money to do it. I wish I had it...
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@sashann (210)
• Philippines
27 Mar 18
I dont know what to say , but please talk to God,.. pray and cry and cry and cry
