Frustrations and more Frustrations

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Here we go! Just expressing my frustrations and emotions here. I have been doing voluntary work for almost 3 years now and I honestly like what I'm doing. I love supporting people who are need of more than medical and physical needs. Because they have become part of my life experience. We learn together and they become friends too. But things has been different lately- i mean way difficult than different.. i have been feeling like a slave more than a volunteer. I have set that thought aside because I know that is non-sense given the fact that you enjoy doing what do. And I do enjoy what I do. It is fulfilling and a great life changing experience. Today is just too much. I think I have been overworked and abused for the last months. I been thinking of just leaving and try my luck somewhere else but it aches me a little bit to JUST LEAVE. it won't be that easy. i honestly have been attached to the people, community and the environment. so many memories, ups and downs. but thinking of making new ones and giving chances to whatever the future and other career path will bring or take me. i am just frustrated right now. maybe, frustrated to make decisions. or maybe i am scared to make my decisions. fear is taking over me! again! i believe i can take enough time to think and weigh in the pros and cons but i also keep in mind that making mistakes is part of making decisions because again; life and i are not perfect. i hope and i pray that i can make a firm decision soon. i guess- i need to make that decision when i still can. sigh! i feel a little better now while drinking a beer. Ha! how are you mylotters? it's been awhile.