Stressful
By Felicia Kane
@DesirousDreamer (34776)
Peoria, Arizona
August 8, 2018 5:20pm CST
Why is sleeping so stressful for me?
I hate it, I hate it so much that I always have to stress about sleeping. Am I sleeping too little? Am I sleeping too much?
My main worry about sleeping too much or having a graveyard shift kind of sleeping style (sleeping during the day and awake at night) is that my mom is said that she doesn't get to spend that much time with me. And I feel so guilty.
Just now she came in here and we were talking for a bit but I am tried, I don't know why I am tired, probably because of the overcast and I am yawning so badly that my eyes are watering and she goes, "But you just woke up." First off, I didn't just wake up, I woke up at 11:30am and it was going on 3pm. So that is only a few hours but I didn't just wake up.
And so I felt super guilty that I wanted to take a nap even though I did go to bed at 4:30am and woke up almost every hour on the hour because that is just what I do.
It is just so stressful because I want to be awake during the day so my mom doesn't worry about me and is actually able to see me and we can spend time, but sometimes I just want to go full night owl and work at night and sleep during the day because I feel so much better working at night.
Sleeping shouldn't be so stressful!!
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@tammys85 (30134)
• Baltimore, Maryland
10 Aug 18
@DesirousDreamer Definitely. I hope you find a remedy soon.
@DesirousDreamer (34776)
• Peoria, Arizona
11 Aug 18
@tammys85 Unless someone can find the cure of depression that isn't taking pills that make me even worse, it won't happen and I will forever be a night owl.
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@andriaperry (117146)
• Anniston, Alabama
9 Aug 18
Since you and your mom are super close, why not just tell her how you feel when you sleep in the day and are up at night, its you and it feels right. I am sure she will understand.
And how did it go with your dad? Did you meet and talk with him?
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@DesirousDreamer (34776)
• Peoria, Arizona
10 Aug 18
I tell her all the time, doesn't make any difference.
I made a post about it, not a lot happened.
@Shellyann36 (11384)
• United States
10 Aug 18
Have you ever been tested for a sleeping disorder? My sleep pattern is all wonky again and it is driving me nuts.
@Shellyann36 (11384)
• United States
11 Aug 18
@DesirousDreamer I am so sorry to hear this. Are you on medication? Does it not work well for you? My cousins suffers from bipolar disorder. She has a really hard time but she manages with her medication. Even with her medication though, she still struggles at times.
@DesirousDreamer (34776)
• Peoria, Arizona
10 Aug 18
Yes. My depression caused by my bipolar disorder causes my insomnia.
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@DesirousDreamer (34776)
• Peoria, Arizona
13 Aug 18
@Shellyann36 No, doctors saw that I wasn't a problem or a danger to myself or others because I know how to control it in a sorts, the depression is manic so it just randomly happens but I am totally aware of the sitaution when it happens.
@SIMPLYD (90721)
• Philippines
10 Aug 18
You are a night owl and I suppose your mother knows that, hence understands you. Because if she doesn't know, then you can make her understand how you are with your sleeping pattern.
Enjoy each day that your mother is with you.
@SIMPLYD (90721)
• Philippines
11 Aug 18
@DesirousDreamer She will.understand because she knows it's your nature of work .
@DesirousDreamer (34776)
• Peoria, Arizona
10 Aug 18
She knows very well, but the point is that my sleep schedule is so messed up that I don't get to see her a lot.
@Mavic123456 (21893)
• Thailand
9 Aug 18
true sleeping should not stress you out. did you see a doctor for this?
@DesirousDreamer (34776)
• Peoria, Arizona
11 Aug 18
@Mavic123456 They will just give me pills that won't work. I have been through this type of situation all my childhood and I'm sick of explaining it to doctors who will just give me pills.
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@stacy31 (157)
• Nairobi, Kenya
13 Aug 18
sleep enough. Deprivation of sleep can be stressful and cause fatigue. Plan when to work and when to sleep and inform your mom so that she does not get worried.
@DesirousDreamer (34776)
• Peoria, Arizona
13 Aug 18
I just sleep when I can and that is the best way to do it.
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@Hate2Iron (15727)
• Canada
8 Aug 18
I really hope that things settle down for you. That sounds so hard to handle!
@Srbageldog (7716)
• United States
9 Aug 18
I sleep best during the day and am usually awake all night. When I try to sleep at night, I wake up every couple hours and don't get restful sleep.
Hopefully you'll be able to figure out a sleep schedule that works for you and allows you to spend time with your mom.
@RasmaSandra (80736)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
9 Aug 18
Sleeping should be a relaxing thing. I too have issues with sleeping. I can sleep about four hours straight but then do a wake-up. If I get up too early then I need to nap in the afternoon and then sometimes I don't get everything done/.
@DesirousDreamer (34776)
• Peoria, Arizona
10 Aug 18
I wake up every hour and if I sleep at night I can get up to 4 hours and that is it, my brain just doesn't like sleeping at night.
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@JudyEv (342112)
• Rockingham, Australia
9 Aug 18
I'm sorry you're having so much trouble with sleeping and waking. And Mums do tend to worry don't they? I do hope things improve for you.
@JudyEv (342112)
• Rockingham, Australia
10 Aug 18
@DesirousDreamer Yes, I can understand that. It's to your credit that you try so hard. 
@DesirousDreamer (34776)
• Peoria, Arizona
10 Aug 18
That they do, she just wants to spend time with me but also want me healthy it is just hard to do that sometimes.
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@thislittlepennyearns (62929)
• Defuniak Springs, Florida
9 Aug 18
I'm sorry sleeping is so rough for you. I have times like that I too. My new thing is waking up between 330 and five every single day.
@DesirousDreamer (34776)
• Peoria, Arizona
10 Aug 18
I tried to sleep earlier and yet here I am awake at almost 2am. I don't understand my brain.
@thislittlepennyearns (62929)
• Defuniak Springs, Florida
10 Aug 18
@DesirousDreamer I don't understand it either. I was up a few times during the night. And finally just gave up on sleeping anymore.
@Courage7 (19633)
• United States
9 Aug 18
Remember you have to stick to your own sleeping pattern. No good trying to fight it.
I am a day person hands down but that is me.
I cannot sleep in the daytime.
I think when we are born we are already adapted to our own sleep schedule so be it night or day, it is what it is.
Your Mother will understand.
@DesirousDreamer (34776)
• Peoria, Arizona
10 Aug 18
I was born at midnight where as my mom was born in the early morning so it only makes sense.
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@Courage7 (19633)
• United States
10 Aug 18
@DesirousDreamer Funny that I was born at a few minutes after midnight too Felicia.
