How to celebrate New Year without you?

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Hello my co-mylotters! Happy New Year to all of us! My topic is How to celebrate New Year without you. Actually, during December 31 I spend my whole day in front of my laptop to do my monthly and annual report which is due for submission at exactly 8:00 AM of January 1, this has been my life for 3 years now. I still need to report for duty in the morning to print all my reports for submission to the higher office. New year is not just simply new year for us, this is also the birthday of my late father. It's always a routine that after I report for duty, I make it sure that before 10 AM me and my family must be at the house of my parents. I bring all my present for him night of December 31 because I want him to celebrate his day that even if I came late he can already blow his candle. It's our usual new year. Last year, I brought him fruits, cake, spaghetti, sotanghon guisado, chicken inasal and fruit salad. Some of which are not good for him to eat, so I told him to consume all the fruits but blow the candle of his cake. He told me that those are for him so he will consume it. My sister also brought him something. My mother told me that my father discouraged my mother from giving some of the foods to the neighborhood, which is the usual act the do during new year, sharing. The cake I gave him, he told Mama to keep it in the refrigerator because it's for him from me. So my mother do as what my father told him. Mama watched Papa getting some cake, bring it upstairs and do some solitaire while eating the cake. Then, get some fruits and bring it again upstairs and eat it there. It became his activity for almost a week. Then, after a week, I visited them, he was very happy, he kept on playing with my kids. Until the following week he got sick, my sister and my mother brought him to the doctor for consultation, since I am pregnant I let my sister accompany them sacrificing her students too. Later of January when he got sick again. We brought him to the hospital for confinement. He had a mild attack and he stayed in the hospital for a week. Until we took him home with hopes in our hearts that he's getting better. He tricked us, he showed that he's doing good already, with smile on his face, so we parted happy without even thinking that, that's the last night we're going to be together that was February 3. February 4, 2018 at 12:30 AM my son was knocking at our window, I don't know how will I react when he said that Papa is soon to left us, that he's breathing hard. When I reached home, my brother is silently crying outside, my sister was holding my father's head while mama is at the other side of the bed. I cannot accept that he's gone too soon. I still have plans for him. And now I don't know how will I celebrate New Year and his birthday. I still brought what I used to for Mama, but something, someone is missing and it's hard to bear. Until now, I am still crying whenever I hear songs that reminds me of him, when I am looking at my youngest son who looks like him. Almighty Father is great indeed. He knows how will I miss my Papa and he gave me his replica. Papa never really left me at all.