Feeling Melancholy
By NerdGirlUSA
@starflye78 (260)
Daytona Beach, Florida
February 6, 2019 7:45am CST
Today is the day that my husband goes to court for the charges here. After that, the other county will have 5 days to come pick him up. Then 5 more till he sees a VOP judge. Then it could be anywhere from 30 days to a year before I see him again. I'm not sad or anxious or worried. It is what it is, and whatever will be will be.
I know that I can't leave this shelter and live out there on my own. But I also know that God has a plan for me and He will put someone in my life to look out for me if Mitch is going to be gone for awhile.
We aren't actually legally married, so part of me wonders if this is God's way of telling me that it is time for change.
I have many friends here, but I am really feeling drawn to make a stronger connection, especially with two of the people here.
You can't force these things, the invisible spirits that draw us to one another.
But sometimes it would be nice to have a little peek at the answers.
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@Hannihar (130213)
• Israel
14 Feb 19
@starflye78
It is hard to know what to do. You are right you cannot force these things. I believe if you pray to G-d you will get your answer on what to do.
@starflye78 (260)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
14 Feb 19
Turns out, the answers were right in front of me the whole time, I just didn't want to see them. The boyfriend in jail turns out had been lying for quite some time. And the inexplicable connection I tried so hard to prove to myself was a mistake-- well, I'm taking that one day at a time.
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@Hannihar (130213)
• Israel
15 Feb 19
@starflye78
That is all you can do is take one day at a time and glad you have the answers. Sometimes it takes a while to figure that out even if they are right in front of you.
