I WENT BACK TO CHURCH AGAIN!
By zeahray
@zearay (98)
Philippines
May 6, 2019 12:21am CST
I know some of you always go to church every Sunday to praise God and thank him.
To tell you honestly I lost faith for so many years because of the bad things happen to my life ( I know its my bad choice) and so I started to go separate ways from him.
I dwell on sadness, loneliness and lead me unto depression. It's been a while that I undergo unto that situation. I felt like nobody care & love me on that point of my life.
I did not mention it to any of my family, they have no clue what's goin on into my life until this point. They think I'm okay.
I don't want them to get worried.
I was like that, until one day while having my coffee I was thinking about what if I left this body and die where will I go? In heaven? In Hell?
I was reminiscing my days prior to my depression, for my bad choices I made in my life and left me broken...... And I thought it's not God decision to be misery. I choose that way. I let myself to be alone and not to be love. My family is just few steps away from and I did not allow them to come closer. Its my mistake not God mistake. HE LOVES ME!
From that moment on, I promise myself to get back on track and thank God he let me see all of this!. God is beautiful, He loves ME! and that's for sure.
For any of you that experiencing depression and sadness your family is there. Try to reach them. They will never let you down.
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@arunima25 (87854)
• Bangalore, India
6 May 19
We tend to have such negative feelings at times when going through a low phase. And I am sure Almighty God understands that very much. I am glad that you have restored your faith in him. Faith makes us go strong.
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@zearay (98)
• Philippines
6 May 19
@arunima25 that is absolutely true. I find my way back to his home and to his loving arms once again.
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@arunima25 (87854)
• Bangalore, India
6 May 19
@zearay Stay assured! You are in safest place and He knows the best for you.
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@zearay (98)
• Philippines
6 May 19
@arunima25 Yes thats true. I am still in difficulties but I know I can surpass this by his glory.
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@1hopefulman (45120)
• Canada
6 May 19
Yes, sometimes we make some bad choices and blame God but He is patient and is happy when we come back to our senses.
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@zearay (98)
• Philippines
7 May 19
@1hopefulman That's true, I can say I more better now than before. I realized we would not be happy when my life would be totally ruined.
Thanks to HIM he let me see and realized good things.
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