I've been Gaslighted!

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I've been struggling to get recognition for my writing when I already have work done out there as a ghostwriter. I've been writing since I've been 8 years old. My family moved from N.Y. to N.J. in 1984, and I really missed my friends back in N.Y. So to cope, all I did was write whenever and wherever I could. At home, sometimes I hid in the closet to get some peace and quiet because my family liked to blast the tv. Even when I was playing outside, I sometimes had a notebook and pen to write. Any time I got an idea in my head, I had to write it down. I still kinda do it now. We just have the technology of phones to be able to keep notes and voice record ideas. Well, to the point of gaslighting... Gaslighting is to psychologically manipulate someone into questioning their sanity. This was done to me since I was 8 years old, first by my fourth grade teacher and then to be continued by my parents to keep up the pretense that they didn't do anything wrong to me. My fourth grade teacher plagiarized my writing work that I handed in for English class and used it to pitch work for a cartoon without my permission. After it was confirmed that this was done among other racist things that this teacher did to its students, the parents of this teacher's students got paid a settlement from the elementary school for damages, etc. My parents tried to have me believe that this never happened to keep the money for themselves and never let me know that I had money to be put away for college, etc. When I turned 14 years old, I called DYFS on my parents because I couldn't take the conditions I was living in after my older sister left to go away to college. She was like a surrogate mother to me and a buffer between me and my biological mother. I had a "manic episode" in school and had to immediately be put into a mental institution for services. I was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder(called manic depression at the time which was 1990) but I knew that my condition had more to do with what was going on at home. After I was released from the mental hospital, it was court ordered for my family to go to family therapy for a certain amount of time. With this all happening, I was still writing and I also submitted an article to the NJ Star Ledger while I was in the mental hospital. Well that was a big mistake because from that time on I was being watched from those in the entertainment world and others as an interesting "subject". I also wasn't the only one writing. I distinctly remembered that when I was in elementary school, my classmates also wrote stories with me. We had to be home schooled for a short time while things were being figured out about the teacher who abused us. I started to notice that many things on tv and/or in the movies revolved around things that happened in our lives &/or about stories we already wrote. They tried to disguise some things, but some things were so obvious that I began to figure it out and had to go after the entertainment companies. I've had a gag order on this information for a long time due to being under contract with them but no longer. My last contract has officially ended in 2005 and as far as I know I'm owed a significant amount of money. Many distractions have been put in my path to stop me from claiming the monies owed me. Also, when I would try to bring up the subject of these past events my parents and some others would try to make me believe that these things never happened or that I might have written a "story" about such things. I may write alot, but I know the difference between what was happening in my life and what I wrote down. To be honest, the first things that I mostly wrote down was about my real life in journals. So it kinda confirmed what happened to me. Knowing this, my fourth grade teacher had my parents give my childhood journals over to him for "evidence" of me as a liar. He totally had my parents fooled that I was a cheater and liar just because I cheated one time on a test. And it was a self correcting test. I didn't cheat off of someone's paper. I also admitted that I was doing it because I wanted a better grade than I knew that I was going to get because I felt that I wasn't prepared for the test. But my parents totally took the teacher's word for everything an didn't believe that the teacher was using my work for his own reward among other things. To this day, even though the school knows it to be true and had to pay for this teacher's mistakes my own family will never believe me when I tell them that the cartoon "Jem and the Holograms" was my idea along with "She-RA", the female version of "He-man". To my family, it's just something a young kid made up... I've been gaslighted!