Conflicted

My grandma;Flickr photo
By Jen
@polyxena (2628)
Sturgis, Michigan
July 9, 2019 6:31pm CST
My only living grandmother passed away today. My feelings are conflicted. We were never close. She never reached out to even tell me congratulations after having my sons. I only saw her a half dozen times since my mom and dad moved to Indiana from Illinois. Now she's gone. She wanted my dad's insurance money when he passed I don't know why she'd want it. Part of me wants to cry, because she's family. Part of me is hallow, I hardly knew her. Then there's part of me that's confused, why didn't anyone tell me that she passed. This is the only picture I could find of her if you look in the photo album. There's a photo of me, there's also photos of my cousins, who are not related to her at all, they're the cousins on my moms side. The photo was taken from Flickr. From living facility that she lived at. Maybe all of this will make sense eventually.
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@Miss_Leafy (4296)
• Colombia
10 Jul 19
It happens. That's fine if your feelings are conflicted. You'd never been close with her when she's still alive. May she rest in peace.
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@Ladanger (14578)
• United States
10 Jul 19
Sorry for your loss. I have family that i know of but never met. I don't blame you for having mixed feelings.
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@polyxena (2628)
• Sturgis, Michigan
10 Jul 19
Thank you. The only thing I really want to know is what she passed from. I don't want whatever was wrong with her to be genetic.
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@Ladanger (14578)
• United States
10 Jul 19
@polyxena yes alot of things get passed down
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@polyxena (2628)
• Sturgis, Michigan
10 Jul 19
@Ladanger Yeah, and my dad when he was a live had tons of things wrong with him, and this grandma was his mom. It leaves me with questions. I really don't want to ask my family anything, because I rather not talk to them.
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@hereandthere (45645)
• Philippines
10 Jul 19
it's strange that she wants your dad's insurance money. maybe she helped pay for it? did she know how to reach you when you had your sons? anyway, i hope she's at peace now. i agree with christina it would be good to know the cause in case it's preventable.
@polyxena (2628)
• Sturgis, Michigan
10 Jul 19
She knew how to get ahold of me. As do the rest of my family. I have no clue what her motives were for the insurance money. I guess the best thing to do is wait to see if my family says or does anything.
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@sophie09 (34236)
• Indonesia
10 Jul 19
so sorry to hear that :( stay strong, i know she is in a better place now
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