My Fam and My decisions

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Family comes first. But in my case, with a family that is almost drowning in debt, I think finding a decent job comes first. My mom is practically bedridden now. Yet she was still so stubborn! For a thousand times already, even before her condition worsened, we've been telling her to go to the doctor and get hospitalized cause she needs medical attention. But she refused. No matter how much we tried to convince her, still no avail. She was only taken to the hospital when she was already very weak. And now, my auties would want me to go home to the province and take care of her. I SAID NO... Don't get the wrong idea guys, I worry about my mom so so much. However, after she was hospitalized a few weeks ago, her health insurance did not cover the hospital bill and then there are lots of medicine we need to buy for her. So, our already big debt got a lot bigger and I thought, what if mom would get hospitalized again? I can't just stand and watch. I need to find work to be able to help. If I go home to the province and care for her, I won't be able to make money. Now, aunties and uncles were angry about me. They said I was a good for nothing daughter. I just hope that they'll realize that helping doesn't just mean dropping everything and stay by their side all the time. It also means doing my best to extend my mom's life and help my sibling have a better future someday. I hope they see the bigger future. I honestly feel so down these past few weeks. Even during Christmas and New year. I just finally found the guts to be able to talk about it here. Hoping for some advice. This is pretty sensitive and I am sorry for posting it here. I just want to blow off some steam. Maybe, the reason why God did not give me and my husband a baby yet, was because of this. Waiting for the perfect time really does matter. that would be all for now mylotters. Love ya'all.