Death

@Nevena83 (65277)
Serbia
March 29, 2020 10:11am CST
Good day friends My day was terrible. I had a confrontation with my father that put me out of tact. He was drunk again and began to tell very hard lies, saying that I had said it. I started to defend myself, but he was horrible, uttered horrible insults, and my mother was silent. I called my aunt, his sister and said what happened and said I'm sorry, but I wish my father a death. She understood me, because she knows what the hell I'm going through every day. I am a parent and I cannot imagine my son wishing for my death, but then know what is going on in my life, in my head, and how much more I can't stand all this. I was very upset, I couldn't breathe, my chest ached, my hands were seized ... I could barely stop crying, and my father went to his room and watched TV peacefully. Have you ever wished for someone to die?
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• Defuniak Springs, Florida
29 Mar 20
I would move out. There's no reason for you or your children to be surrounded by that
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
29 Mar 20
You are right, but there is no job here to ensure that I can pay for an apartment and have extra money for my child.
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@Hannihar (130218)
• Israel
31 Mar 20
@Nevena83 People that have a problem with drinking do tell lies a lot. I take it your mother is afraid of him. I can understand why you would wish that on your father. I am so sorry you have to deal with that. Probably have because they deserve it.
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@Hannihar (130218)
• Israel
31 Mar 20
@Nevena83 Yes I do understand and I felt very alone too. Thank heavens we got a divorce but what he put my animals and I through I cannot forget.
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
31 Mar 20
She's not afraid of him. She just doesn't want to confront him. Yes, I feel terrible, I can't stand feeling bad, because it takes a very long time.
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
31 Mar 20
@Hannihar Oh, I'm sorry to hear that, but then you know what I'm going through. No, I have no one, in fact, when it's hard for me to call my aunt, his sister, and she always listens to me.
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@JudyEv (340489)
• Rockingham, Australia
30 Mar 20
I am so, so sorry this is happening. What a shame you can't leave.
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@JudyEv (340489)
• Rockingham, Australia
31 Mar 20
@Nevena83 Can you train online for a new career? Anything to become financially independent so you can move out.
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
30 Mar 20
Thank you. It feels awful, the same thing happens every day and I find it hard to bear.
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
31 Mar 20
@JudyEv Oh, I don't think I'm so good at training others. Maybe over time, though you are right, I need to start something to make more money.
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@judithml (405)
4 Apr 20
I'm sorry that this is happening and that it is with your father. I hope you will find way to stay away from him to stay out of similar situations and I wish you peace. As for your question had I ever wished for someone to die? I did several times and this was to an enemy. She was my ex co worker and the cause of my hatred was she telling ties and manipulating me.
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@judithml (405)
4 Apr 20
@Nevena83 Sadly no. Or maybe she just keeps a front that things are okay. But from what I can see no she is not punished. Even so I never thought that her not receiving punishment from God is unfair, as long as she does not keep bothering me.
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@judithml (405)
4 Apr 20
@Nevena83 They should. Either they change or they get punished in some ways by karma. Sometimes we cannot force change to some people, sometimes they have to realize things by themselves.
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
4 Apr 20
@judithml Oh ... Do you think everyone gets what he deserves in the end?
@dya80dya (36660)
4 Apr 20
If I was really angry I did this. I understand you more than you think.
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@dya80dya (36660)
4 Apr 20
@Nevena83 I am going through something similar. People who don't have these problems can't understand.
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
4 Apr 20
@dya80dya Exactly. It is difficult for someone who has not experienced some form of violence to understand how we feel.
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
4 Apr 20
I know you understand me and thank you for that. These are really difficult thoughts, but only someone who goes through the same hell can understand it.
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@CarolDM (203422)
• Nashville, Tennessee
29 Mar 20
I have been very upset with many people but never said those words. I so wish you could get out and go anywhere for now.
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@CarolDM (203422)
• Nashville, Tennessee
29 Mar 20
@Nevena83 How long before your son is out of school?
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
29 Mar 20
@CarolDM My son, if God willing, will finish school next year if he does not continue college. I would like to continue his education, but I don't think he wants to, says he wants to work, make money.
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
29 Mar 20
My psyche, my organism can no longer bear what I survive.
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@marguicha (223298)
• Chile
29 Mar 20
Can´t you just go to another room when he is like that?
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@marguicha (223298)
• Chile
29 Mar 20
@Nevena83 Do you work, even part time?
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@marguicha (223298)
• Chile
29 Mar 20
@Nevena83 Try to stay away from the stress while you are working.
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
29 Mar 20
He is like that every day, all the time, he is always looking for a way to hurt me, provoke me ...
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@kanuck1 (4434)
29 Mar 20
I feel very sad that you have to deal with that awful situation.
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@kanuck1 (4434)
29 Mar 20
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
29 Mar 20
Thanks for your compassion.
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@jstory07 (139816)
• Roseburg, Oregon
29 Mar 20
I never had and I hope I never do.
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
29 Mar 20
I'm glad they thought something like that because it's a difficult feeling.
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@Tampa_girl7 (50317)
• United States
30 Mar 20
I’ve never wished for anyone to die, but I have wished that they would leave and I wouldn’t have to see them anymore. I hope that your situation improves
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
30 Mar 20
I just want all this to stop.
@just4him (317090)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
30 Mar 20
No, I haven't. I'm sorry you had such a terrible day.
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
30 Mar 20
Thank you. These are the things that exhaust me.
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@paigea (36317)
• Canada
29 Mar 20
I am so sorry you are dealing with that. I hope you can move out or find another solution.
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
29 Mar 20
I have no solution, all I want is for my son to leave this house as soon as possible.
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
29 Mar 20
@Sehar88 I would really love that.
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@Moon24 (22396)
• Serbia
30 Mar 20
I hope you can go on some other place where you can be happy.
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
30 Mar 20
I don’t think that’s ever going to happen. But I wish all this would stop.
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30 Mar 20
I understand you perfectly. I have also wished the same when i got really angry
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
30 Mar 20
These are situations where someone hurts us a lot. It feels so heavy.
@snowy22315 (180979)
• United States
29 Mar 20
I feel for you. He seems like a terrible person. Your mom is complicit by just standing by.
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@Nevena83 (65277)
• Serbia
29 Mar 20
Thank you. Yes, I always ask her if it is possible that she may not respond to all that. I have a child and I cannot imagine myself in her situation.