Self Quarantine, Day 8

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My partner/roomate was sent home by his boss last Friday because he wasn't feeling well, and was told not to come back until he recieved clearance from the Covid Coronavirus. Florida is one of the states that has not yet issued a stay at home order but we opted to go ahead and somewhat quarantine ourselves for two weeks. I have social anxiety and bipolar, so it really wasn't much different for me at first. But as the days have gone on, I have realized how important human connection actually is. We aren't together, but we are. And things have been really tense. He wants his space and I have nobody else to talk to. I chose to stop making connections with people because I kept on getting disappointed in the selfishness of humankind. I stopped showing my light to others and fighting to uncover the buried psyche of the dark souls. I became so focused on myself and what I wanted, I didn't see anything else. How can I expect him or anyone else to think that love is worth it if I'm behaving like a raging psychopath? this man rescued me out of the woods where I was living by myself. We have had some very intense discussions the past few days, and things are looking better. I'm pretty sure his patience was wearing thin, though because last night he went to the neighbor's house and got her to lend me her laptop. He told her I'm going to lose my mind. I think we both would have. Anyhow, I know this is a long one and I've been away awhile. I spent all night fixing this laptop and I've just got the rest of today and tomorrow before my mobile service gets cut off. I'm with the only company not doing bill forgiveness for the coronavirus. I sat on hold 45 minutes today just to get hung up on. But things are still looking up. I saw a redbird this morning. I was able to walk back into my house instead of into the woods next to it where I could have ended up. Hope all of you mylotters are coping well with this pandemic.