Debt Problems

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I don't know how to say this without sounding so upset about it... I just hope to express my frustrations and let a bit of steam outta my head cause it may pop if I hold it in a little longer. You see, my mom died last april and we are already more than 30k peso in debt for medications and other needs for my mom since she never wanted to be hospitalized and stayed at home. Those debts are from loan sharks which means double the inerests from normal loans you get from banks and microbanks... I also have no work yet because I was stuck in Cagayan de Oro during the pandemic and stayed at home. My brother works at the pineapple field, which pays just the minimum pay. With the amount of debt needed to be paid per month, my two younger bros might not have enough to get by. It is my responsibility as the eldest and its so frustrating knowing I cannot even help them. If its not stressful enough, my Mom's siblings would want us to repay the money they have spent and borrowed for my Mom's care and funeral. If it's me, I'd understand if they would hate me. But my brother cannot even disobey them, has been a very good niece to them and yet, they cannot even help them a bit. I just find it so mean. Its not like we asked for that money and spent it for leisure and fancy stuff. They were spending it for their sister, who's suffering from breast cancer. This might sound so selfish but, I wasn't saying saying that we're nit gonna pay them back, atleast, not now. I just wish they would not hurry us too much and understand cause we still have a lot of debt and we don't have our parents anymore. It's so frustrating and painful. Sorry for ranting it here guys. Sometimes, its way better to say it to people who would give honest opinion that to family members and might create problems.