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So after 5 months of wondering if my restaurant was going to re open, I finally get the dreaded response from my former assistant manager. My store forever closed. I kind of felt like it was going to, but still stings a bit. I have been on unemployment since it closed so I am not completely broke, plus my husband still has his essential job. I am incredibly lucky to have such a good man. My son starts school virtual tomorrow. He is in first grade so I need to still be home with him to supervise. I did not choose virtual school, his school just is not open yet for precautions. Not knowing how long this is going to last is really stressful. I do not really want to work nights, but I may have no choice. I know unemployment will not last forever. I can't work days right now because I do not have a reliable sitter who would actually supervise and make sure he does his work or that I trust completely anymore. I would like to try something new that pays what I need to make, but I am just so scared of starting over again and failing. Serving is all I know and have been in the hospitality business for 13 years. I feel like it's a dying industry at the moment though and the money is not there anymore from what I have heard. This whole thing has made me severly depressed. I love my son to death, but I have never been a stay at home mother before and never intended to ever be one. Too much togetherness. I feel like I am failing as a mother, wife and just as a person in general. I feel like the only reason I am even still alive is because I could never hurt my son or husband like that. I love them too much. I just don't really know what to do right now.......It's rough. I know other people are in the same boat and I need to stop feeling sorry for myself. I did get offered 2 different positions from 2 of my old bosses at the same chain, but I really don't want to put my body through graveyard again or management, but I guess I can't really be too picky right? I hope to figure this all out soon.