My Brother is Dead
By Ghost Writer
@Writingghost (5196)
United States
September 12, 2020 8:40am CST
I am so lost and confused. He fought so hard and I found his body, yesterday. It didn't even take 4 hours before my other brother came to see what he could take. He kept asking me why I was crying.
The only time that I did not live in the same house as my brother was about 6 years of my life. He was just my brother, he was my friend, he was my protector, he was my pest, he was my hero over and over again.
I don't know how to function. Last night I thought I heard him fall and went charing upstrairs to help him and then remembered. I am so lost.
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61 responses
@LadyDuck (471969)
• Switzerland
16 Sep 20
@Writingghost We cannot change how we are.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
I wish I was a stronger person when it comes to things like this.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
17 Sep 20
@LadyDuck I am hoping I am I can move forward with a better attitude.
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@hereandthere (45645)
• Philippines
12 Sep 20
was he the one you were caring for? your other brother is unbelievable.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
I don't plan on seeing my other brother every again after we spread the ashes. I won't let him in my home.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
My other brother will never be in my home again. I don't need that kind of toxic behavior.
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@moffittjc (121659)
• Gainesville, Florida
12 Sep 20
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your brother. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. We are all here for you on myLot if you need to express your grief, sorrow, anger and other emotions. We are here to listen and help you the best we can.
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@moffittjc (121659)
• Gainesville, Florida
19 Sep 20
@Writingghost It's hard to prepare if in your mind you think that the person still has another 10 years in them.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
19 Sep 20
@moffittjc I am grateful he has no pain, and I am so alone without him. I somehow have to heal.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
I should have been prepared, but the doctor said he had another 10 years probably because his surgeries went so well.
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@CarolDM (203422)
• Nashville, Tennessee
15 Sep 20
@Writingghost Do whatever you need to do.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
Okay, I will do my best to make it through this day with fewer tears and less screaming. (I wake up screaming.)
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@florelway (23286)
• Cagayan De Oro, Philippines
12 Sep 20
I am sorry for your loss. I hope the other members of your family and some friends are around to console you in your grief.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
There are some who are helping and this is helping as well. Thank you all so much.
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@GardenGerty (160883)
• United States
12 Sep 20
I am so sorry. I am also sorry for the bad feelings I hear from the rest of your family. We are here if you need us.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
Those bad feelings have been around for years. I do have some family that is very caring and kind. I am going to choose to hang out with those.
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@kanuck1 (4434)
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16 Sep 20
@Writingghost 
If you believe in God then when your strength gives out, you can call and ask for the strength you need.
If you believe in God then when your strength gives out, you can call and ask for the strength you need.@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
Stay strong, interesting words, and probably just what I needed to hear right now.
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@cmoneyspinner (9219)
• Austin, Texas
12 Sep 20
I know how you feel. For the moment you might be a little disoriented. It's the shock. Eventually your mind will wrap itself around the reality that he is no longer here. I know you are in pain. I grieve with you. Cherish your memories.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
Thank you so much. I am so grateful for all the kind words.
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@FourWalls (68884)
• United States
12 Sep 20
I’m so sorry for your loss. My prayers and sympathies.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
Thank you. I truly appreciate it. This is helping me heal.
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@simone10 (54187)
• Louisville, Kentucky
19 Sep 20
@Writingghost I can certainly understand. It's been 3 weeks for me and its still hard. I'm still here for you 
@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
Thank you, I appreciate that. I may message you. I am having a really hard time. I thought I would do better.
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@TheHorse (220068)
• Walnut Creek, California
15 Sep 20
@Writingghost From fires, yes. But it's still pretty smoky here. The sun was red when it came up this morning.
@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
Thank you, it all helps. How are things where you are? Are you safe from fires and smoke?
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@andriaperry (117130)
• Anniston, Alabama
12 Sep 20
I'm so sorry for your loss, need a ear I'm here.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
Thank you so much. It does help because now I am home alone and I just keep thinking I can hear him. (Perhaps I am losing my mind.)
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@Butterfingers (66583)
• India
12 Sep 20
Am so sad to know about it. My deepest condolences
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
Thank you, I appreciate that. It means the world to me.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
Thank you, reading all of these feels as if I am being wrapped up in a nice blanket.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
Thank you, I appreciate all of you so much.
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@1creekgirl (41686)
• United States
12 Sep 20
I'm so sorry to hear this. I'll pray for God to give you comfort and a clear mind.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
I appreciate that, because I am lacking both right now.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
Yes, he had many. But after his last surgery, they said he was good for probably at least another 10 years. I was counting on that.
@Lavanya15 (12888)
• Chennai, India
12 Sep 20
That's really heartbreaking news, so sad to hear.
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@Writingghost (5196)
• United States
15 Sep 20
Thank you for your kind words and thoughts. It really does help.
@piyushbhatia1 (11695)
• India
16 Sep 20
@Writingghost can't say anything else. Not at expert on this matter
