My husband is working a lot and I miss him being here more

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Today I was talking to my husband and I remember just telling him I miss him. I mean he's here every day but he works 12 hour days and has only had one day off in a month. When he is home he sleeps. All of our time is crammed into dinner. It's not his fault and it won't be this way forever. His work fell behind and he's having to work overtime to catch up. On one of the few days he is home early all he wants to do is nap and I barely get to speak to him. When you're used to spending quality time with someone and then suddenly can't it's difficult. We can't watch movies together because he falls asleep during them. He is such a hard worker and I appreciate everything he does for our family but that doesn't mean I don't miss him being physically and emotionally present. He was complaining today that his hands were rough from all of the dry skin from working all day and I told him that they were a working man's hands. He smiled at me. He apologized to me when I told him I missed him and I told him I wasn't upset with him nor should he feel bad because he's doing what he does to support us and the overtime is helping our bank account but there are days we both wonder if the money is worth it. I know some people are used to their significant others being gone but my husband and I definitely aren't used to it. We are grateful at the very least he is home every night which is something some couples don't get. My husband freaked out when he was at the nursing home that he might get locked in and not be able to come home. There have been very few times we have been a part in the years we have been together and my husband can't sleep on his own. If I get up out of bed he comes searching for me. He likes having me nearby. I think it's sweet if not a bit too codependent at times. He told me once he has never loved anyone the way he loved me. We have the most healthy relationship of anyone he has ever been with. It's something I often don't think about because he is the only real relationship I've ever had. I dated some before him and had an interesting relationship with someone a year or so before I got with him but I never let that relationship get serious but was still getting over it when I got with my husband. My husband and I had an instant connection and it has only grown over the years. My husband is the only man I've ever actually loved so I guess I can't relate to having gone through some of the stuff he did in his previous relationships. His long hours have definitely made some things harder for us but this too shall pass. I am just happy he is home at night and we at the very least get to have dinner together. I know I am fortunate enough to have him here with me at all and it's something I try remember when things feel difficult. Some people would be happy to even have the sort of relationship we do and I'm super grateful to have him even if it means missing his presence sometimes. I can't wait until he gets another day off so we can actually spend the day doing something together.