Birthdays felt like it became ordinary

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I used to look forward to birthdays when I was a child up until a few years back. I always get excited celebrating it with my family and another day, maybe a day before or after my actual birthday, I spend it with my dear friends. But something happened that made me feel like my birthdays became ordinary. Few years back, I caught my ex lover cheating a third time, and he broke up with me a couple of weeks before my actual birthday. He went with that new girl he has cheated me on. And on the day of my actual birthday, I saw them both on a date at the movie theater. A year after that, I lost my father days after my birthday. He lost his battle against cancer. It was heartbreaking, but he held out so he could still spend my birthday with me. That was a bittersweet present I wouldn't forget. Then, a year after which, that ex of mine came back and fooled me again. Here's where I felt that "shame on me for fooling me twice." This year, I decided to spend it at home with my mom and siblings, and dedicated another day to celebrate it with workmates. I didn't expect much for my birthday this year as it has become really painful for me for the past years.... But this year, I felt the warmth of family and friends. I had rough years, and I'm still at it, but I probably wouldn't get by those years without my family and friends. My birthday this year felt like just any other day, but just with more food on the table than usual. But this year, with all the pandemic going on, there were still a few of my friends who went out of their way to make me feel special. My family also gave me a warm support to make me feel loved. We may not be able to celebrate birthdays as we used to, like going on a trip, or dining out to the restaurant, but intimate celebrations with those who really matters is what counts. What matters is how much appreciation we can have on something that feels like just like an ordinary day. How about you, how much has changed on your recent years birthday?