Three Years Ago

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Three years ago I was finally diagnosed with a condition called Intercystitial Cystitis. For one year I suffered abdominal and pelvic pain along with UTI symptoms. I was tested for only a few things. A UTI, kidney infection and STD's. All of course were negative. My GYN was actually the one to suggest changing a few things and see if it helps. When the symptoms had died down just a little, she told me about IC. After that, I stopped everything. I stopped moving as much, I watched what I ate and drank to anal levels. I lived like that for three years. It took me that long to get fed up. This is not who I am. I do not sit around and ask people to do things for me. I do not like my weight, I've never weighed so much ever. I have never sat on my butt and done nothing. My fear of the pain, that by the way never goes away anyway, kept me from living. I am so done. I have now started to exercise again. It's my first step to living again. Will I have pain? Yes I will. Will I live? Yes I will. I will live and have stories to tell to my kids when we have them. If I can play with the kids when we see them in Maryland then I can do this. Today I started exercising and I've been doing a little with the guys at Engine 68. We're all meeting up again today and I can't wait. My husband is totally supporting me. He also wants me to check out the fire side of the department lol. I will succeed because I refuse to fail.