Dead inside

June 9, 2021 10:10am CST
Hi there everyone. Just wanna share how I feel most of the time. I don't usually talk or share it to other people around me coz I don't wanna bother them.. I just keep it to myself.. I just feel like I lost my interest in everything. Im having suicidal thoughts most of the time. I feel so lonely and I don't have anybody to share how sad I am. I'm tired of being me. I'm tired of my life. I have no friends to share my thoughts or my secrets. I lost my trust to other people. I don't even share my thoughts to my husband now.. I just don't want us to fight anymore so if ever Im angry at him, I just keep it to my self. Life for me is not fun at all. Anyway, so far, I don't plan on killing myself because I love my children. They are the reason why I wanted to keep living even if Im dead inside.
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Karen Hellier
@Kouponkaren (5503)
• United States
9 Jun 21
Oh my, I am so sorry you are feeling this way. The good news is that you are here and there are a lot of people here that can be your online friends. It sounds like it may help you to talk to a professional counselor, or your Pastor or someone that could help you feel better about your life. Even if it's for the sake of your children. I am proud of you for joining myLot and reaching out to share your feelings.
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Ken
@kanuck1 (4434)
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9 Jun 21
Sometimes we can tell strangers what we can't tell those around us. I have time to listen if you want to talk about how you feel here. Also, God listens even if we think he doesn't and he will respond and help us in his own way and time.
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Shiva
@Shiva49 (26684)
• Singapore
9 Jun 21
That is sad to hear. Life loses its meaning but it is a passing phase. Just hang on for better times to come.
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