Is this creepy?

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I really don't know who I can talk to about this in my own circle of real life friends. People may think I'm being creepy or wondering why I am so curious. Every once in awhile I go searching on Facebook through the pages of my ex-husband's siblings. We married in 1985. The marriage was abusive. He took off early 1992 and I haven't seen him since. I heard from him once or twice waaay back, but don't know what he has been up to. He is not on Facebook, which doesn't surprise me because he thought doing crossword puzzles was a waste of time. I can't see him sitting at a computer. I have not contacted his siblings, just checked out their pages to see if I could find any information. The last time I checked I learned his sister had passed away, which I wasn't surprised. I think she had MS or something. By the way, there were 13 children in this family, two different fathers. Last night I decided to take another look around. Most of them don't keep their pages up to date but one does. My EX's birthday was in February. There was a post from that date indicating that it was his birthday and that he "would have been 61". WOULD HAVE BEEN. He is no longer alive. I am so curious as to what happened to him. I managed to find the obituary for his sister. She died in 2016 of cancer and my EX's name was listed without a spouse and his residence being way over on the other side of the country (originally from New Brunswick, last listed in British Columbia). I could not find his obituary anywhere. Is it weird that I want to find out more? That I have occasionally (not obsessively) been creeping the family on Facebook? I mean, there could be good story material there somewhere. I can't say I'm surprised that he died, I just want to know how. COVID, car accident, another illness, a gun fight (yeah, wouldn't put it past him). I am not obsessing over my ex. He was a jerk and when I look back at pictures I see what a smug look he had on his face. I would even go so far as to say his abusiveness towards me was a contributing factor to my acquiring fibromyalgia. He is a part of my past but he is also a part of my story.