Summer The Hardest Month

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For me, Summer has become the hardest month due to the many memories I have of summers past in Riga, Latvia. Summer was the time when I met my soul mate Martin, summer is the time when we had special memories together. This year it will be four years since he passed away, four years since i left Latvia, four years since I have been living in Florida and the time seems to have just flown by. People might say it gets easier as time goes by but I say it never gets easier but gets tolerable and you manage to get by in life. Today Sunday, June 20th people celebrate Father's Day. It is also my Name's Day Rasma according to the Latvian calendar. In Riga, Latvia we combined my Name's Day celebration with the traditional Midsummer's celebrations that came on Juje 23 and 24. Everyone in Latvia enjoys these celebrations that begin with Ligo on June 23 and is celebrated with singing traditional Midsummer songs, dances, singing, eating, and drinking and lighting large bonfires. On June 23 it also counts as the shortest night of th year so many people celebrate through the night waiting for the following day. On June 24 in Jani or John's Day and the celebration continues including the Name's Day for all guys named Janis or John. Sometimes we would just celebrate together just the two of us and it was always a wonderful time. After these celebrations, it was sad to think that there were no other summer holidays in Latvia. However shortly after this the US Embassy in Riga, Latvia would host their annuals Fourth of July Picnic. Since I had dual citizenship we could join in the celebrations. It was always held on the date closest to July 4th since that was not a holiday in Latvia and the Embassy was closed that day, It was always a lot of fun for a few hours with free food and drink. I have my memories from the last one we shared together. And then in mid-July, there is Martin's birthday on July 19 but I am not talking about that now, So the summer comes and brings its many special memories. And I had a sign that Martin knows how hard this time is for me. A couple of days ago I had a dream which gave me a special message. Since we first got together in Riga, Latvia he had a special pet name for me which was Ruksis and translated means Piglet, It was something special between us and for all the time we had together he never called me by my actual name, always only Ruksis. So whenever he did use my real name it sounded strange. So in the dream, I knew it was Martin but I could not see him clearly. There was a song playing with the words in Latvian- Rusksis ir labs and Bez Ruksa nu nekadi. Translated it means Piglet is good and there is not living without Piglet. So I knew that it was a sign that Martin knows how hard the summer is for me and he is letting me know he is thinking of me and nearby and we will see each other again. In the photo you see a picture I ordered online because it shows a piglet with big ears so you could see that is me with a traditional daisy crown women wear on Midsummer/s and looking over my garden fence in Riga, Latvia, Don't I look wonderful? A song that reminds me that the world keeps turning, life goes on, and I have to keep going along and think positively is by Tom Waite "The World Keeps Turning"