Unfinished?

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We obsess over "unfinished" relationships... Maybe we do... Maybe there is a question mark there on "should it really have ended like that?" maybe we think we could have made it work. Or maybe we are obsessing over it because it caused trauma. Maybe we are obsessing over it because we have unanswered questions. Or maybe we have nothing else better to do so we occupy our minds with everything we hated about them, everything that could have been better like... I dunno the fact they dont have a job (but are still studying their ass off), their weight (that was a big one), how much body hair they may or may not have (another big one)... This discussion isnt here to rip on D... It's to make my feelings heard... I didnt want to express them to our mutual friend... I didnt want him knowing I was anxious that he was gonna ditch me as a friend (because it would have made the situation harder on him) and every time I saw a message from him I thought 'ah here it is D said jump and B said sure thing. But, uh, how high?' If D didnt seem to take Bs feelings into account sure as hell he wouldnt take mine into account. D believed I was trying to split him and B apart... I had no intention of that. Why would I want to? It's always been D and B... Instead he did that to me and B... Alsp emphasis on the D and B because D comes first... His needs, his feelings... Well, thats how it seems sometimes. I say that from experience... He picked me up after me being stressed out in a prac and all I wanted to do was go back to his place and work on my report, have dinner and watch a movie with him if I finished my reports in time. But, he wanted to go get some things.. Okay, it didnt take long but that is not the point I told him I had a deadline of 11:59pm and that I wanted to get it done. I asked if we could go another night and he effectively said "yeah nah I want to go now." so we did... Which made my anxiety spike majorly... There was little to no consideration for me and what I needed. If I do rip on D I generally correct myself cause even though he can be a jerk and sometimes he really doesnt think before he speaks or does things. Some of my favourite memories of my early 20s will always be me spending time with him... And B plus the others of course. Apparently he was checking mylot to see what I was posting... I intentionally left posting anything about D alone for a while. Tch I missed the swear in the photo... Il edit that out.