What would you like to repeat in your youth

I want another chance at Karen Grobe. She beat me in a footrace in first grade and then moved away that summer. I never heard from her again. I have rerun that race a thousand times in my mind and I should have beat her but I stepped funny on a rock near the finish line and stumbled just enough for her to pass me. I wanted another chance but the recess bell rang and everyone had to go back in. I asked several more times at recess for a rematch but she always declined. I would like to erase that memory. It's been doing emotional harm over the last 54 years and I'd like to turn it around before it's too late. I'm tired of the self medicating and isolation. I want to be able to complete tasks and make friends. Please. If you really do have control over these things, help a guy out.

hmm i'd go back to high school and hanging out with my friends on the rooftops.