I wasn't abducted by aliens
By Faye
@FayeHazel (40243)
United States
August 9, 2021 11:52am CST
Hi everyone,
I'm back. (I was actually thinking on quoting Eminem, or Arnold Schwarzenegger for this) but I think it's sufficient just to say that I'm back and happy to be posting again.
This year has been, in a word, rough so far. Mostly I'm experiencing fall out from the passing of my best friend back in March. I suppose, if I call it what it is, it's depression the likes of which I have never experienced before, and a resurge of anxiety. While I've lived with anxiety all of my life - it's returning to a more severe state.
But I don't mean to appear ungrateful - there are a lot of positives in my life . My momma is healthy and doing well, we feel comfortable being out and about now (yes!) thanks to being vaccinated (yes!), I have been on a lot of fun adventures this year, I have my health, and I have a lot of wonderful friends. I'm so thankful for all of these things and more.
However life still feels, for the most part, surreal. Nothing feels grounded or rooted ... it all seems like a dream. Well, not a nightmare, exactly and not a fantasy-like dream. Just like things aren't quite real? Maybe it's from coming out of the pandemic, or maybe it's the personal stresses of the past few years... or a combination.
Anyway! I have missed my MyLot friends - and the acting writing on a more regular basis. I hope all of you have been well and happy, and that you'll catch me up on how you are and how this place has been doing :-)
Photo: Pixabay user : Mysticsartdesign
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19 responses
@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
9 Aug 21
THanks! I missed you, too , and always send 
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@FourWalls (69040)
• United States
9 Aug 21
Fear not. We’re here for you. I’m glad you’re back, and I’m sorry you’ve had a bad year.
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@xander6464 (44422)
• Wapello, Iowa
10 Aug 21
@FayeHazel I hope everything gets back to normal now.
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
10 Aug 21
@xander6464 You and me alike. I just feel so much like I'm in the matrix or something
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@just4him (317238)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
9 Aug 21
Welcome back. I'm sorry you were depressed and anxious. I'm sure the pandemic had a lot to do with it. Even I had a bout of depression and I don't get depressed. It was due to the pandemic and not going anywhere. That's over, and I'm back to my normal routine.
As for catching up, I'm moving. I started looking for a new place in April and got accepted at the senior community complex right behind where I live in July. I move next month. 30 days from today I get the keys. I have people from church helping me move on the 11th.
On another note, my next book, Vendetta, will be published in the next few days. I started the publishing process and am doing the final read-through for cohesiveness. It's going well.
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
9 Aug 21
Wow! Sorry to hear you experienced the depression too. It's rough when your own brain attacks you. Gr! At least that's what it feels like. Happy all is well now. Wow! I'm excited for your move, And happy you have help and congratulations on the book.
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
9 Aug 21
@just4him Ah parental issues seem so often an underlying cause in those who commit violence. How do you pick the names of the characters? That always seemed like it would be tough, to me
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
9 Aug 21
Ah I'm sorry, it is such an uncomfortable feeling, too. I'm happy you're alive
@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
9 Aug 21
Ah yes, realistic, but yet not... a talented artist for sure. I found it on pixabay
@snowy22315 (182235)
• United States
9 Aug 21
I think the last couple of years have been bad for everyone. At least we got rid of Donald Trump.
..Feel better!
..Feel better!2 people like this
@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
9 Aug 21
You're probably right, probably everyone is feeling some degree of tiredness... and... I fully agree! Thank you!
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@kaylachan (71808)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
9 Aug 21
It's been kind of slow-ish here but I've been working hard each day to get paid each month. Life can be stressful at times, but it's all in how we handle it that allows us to grow as people.
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
9 Aug 21
Ah yes, I commend you, sometimes reaching payout is tough!
You're right, we can't change other people or situations usually - just our reactions .... sigh
@DaddyEvil (137629)
• United States
10 Aug 21
It's nice to see you back.
You do know the pandemic isn't over, right? (If you didn't realize that, sorry...)
You do know the pandemic isn't over, right? (If you didn't realize that, sorry...)1 person likes this
@DaddyEvil (137629)
• United States
10 Aug 21
@FayeHazel The problem with the Delta variant is that you can catch it even if you've had the vaccine or have had Covid before...
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
10 Aug 21
Thank you for the warm welcome :-D I have heard the Delta variant is picking up. I have hopes that soon enough people will be immune either from having had it (which sucks) or from vaccine that this thing will be not as much of a problem
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
10 Aug 21
@DaddyEvil My understanding was that the vaccines don't 100% stop Delta - but make it a much higher chance that you won't get dangerously ill or may be asymptomatic, and less able to spread it (though still able) .... but I haven;t been researching much
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@1creekgirl (41752)
• United States
9 Aug 21
It's wonderful to hear from you! I'm so sorry you're not feeling well. Glad that Vicki is feeling better and praying you will, too.
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
9 Aug 21
Thanks! I missed you! I appreciate the prayers
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
9 Aug 21
Aw I'm happy we're both back! And on the same day too. Sorry you're feeling the same. It, isn't terrible, but it isn't comfortable, either. At least in my opinion. Yes! Time does seem to pick up speed, doesn't it. Nice to see you here
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@Hannihar (130213)
• Israel
10 Aug 21
@FayeHazel
Hi Faye and welcome back. It has been a long time. I love your title and so glad you were not abducted by aliens. I am so sorry about the loss of your best friend. I am so glad that your Mom is doing well. It is good to have you back. This corona has done a number on us and I wonder if it will ever go away or will we have to live with it forever.
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@Hannihar (130213)
• Israel
10 Aug 21
@FayeHazel
Things are ok here. It seems like it is going on forever and now we we have get a 3rd dose.
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
10 Aug 21
@Hannihar Happy everything is alright. They're talking about boosters here too now
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
10 Aug 21
Thanks so much friend! Ha ha, yes I thought I would be inventive. I hope all is well with you there, and I wonder too if this will ever truly be done with
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@dgobucks226 (35754)
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13 Aug 21
Wishing you better days and years ahead. I thought you might of been Lost In Space?
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
19 Aug 21
Thank you so much and wow! They have cool clothes! I tried getting into the new "Lost in Space" however this looks far superior
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
23 Aug 21
@dgobucks226 Seems like so many great older shows outthere
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@dgobucks226 (35754)
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22 Aug 21
@FayeHazel Was a good show. It might be in syndication on an retro station?
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@S4mmyboy (3266)
• Mumbai, India
10 Aug 21
Well it's my first interaction with you I guess. But looking at the responses I could see that you are well liked and missed by everyone.
Sorry about your loss. There are lots of them who have lost their near and dear ones. Just bring in the positivity and move on. Would love to see you more often.
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
10 Aug 21
Hi Sam Charles - nice meeting you. I've been here for a few years, fairly regularly.... just got out of the habit of posting, but this is a really wonderful community and I've missed everyone.
Thank you. It's hard,but in the end nothing I can do, except not like it....
Thanks agaiN!
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@GardenGerty (160978)
• United States
10 Aug 21
Those feelings can affect us deeply. Glad you are back.
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@popciclecold (39521)
• United States
9 Aug 21
Good to see you, I think we all feel like we are in a dream..But we will all catch up.
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
9 Aug 21
Thanks! It's nice to be here again. I hope you're right and we'll all catch up eventually
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@RebeccasFarm (90474)
• Arvada, Colorado
10 Aug 21
Glad to see you Faye you know we are here!!
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@epiffanie (11326)
• Australia
10 Aug 21
I had a few anxiety attacks in the last 6 years, so I know how it feels.. My first major anxiety attack was way back 2014..The ambulance officer that came to help, because I thought I was having a heart attack, said that it was anxiety, and that I have to be careful and try to manage it, because it could lead to serious depression.. So I make sure that I am aware of the triggers and I am working hard to stay calm..
I just came back to mylot too after two years.. And I'm glad to catch with everyone here again.. Sorry to hear about your friend's passing..Take care ..
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@FayeHazel (40243)
• United States
10 Aug 21
I'm sorry to hear you experienced that anxiety as well. I've often wondered why some people need to deal with it at all. But, we learn to cope. Thanks for the kindness. I'm happy you're back too! :-)
