I'm Hanging In There.
By Tammy
@tammys85 (30226)
Baltimore, Maryland
August 23, 2021 4:34pm CST
Hey there, everyone. After my previous post, I thought I'd pop in and let you all know that I'm hanging in there. This post is going to be all over the place, and if you haven't seen my previous post to understand why, I'll update you now by letting you know that my Mother passed away on Aug. 15th.
I spent a good chunk of Monday and some of Tuesday evening crying off and on. I didn't cry the rest of the week (but that doesn't mean I'm not hurting), but I got angry on Saturday night because I wanted to text my Mom about something.... and I couldn't. And it's not fair. :(
It's been quite an adjustment for all of us. My Mom has ALWAYS been here. As my older sister said elsewhere, she's never NOT been here. But now... she's not here, and even in a full house, it feels a bit empty without her. I cannot imagine how I'm going to navigate the rest of my life without my parents, and especially my Mom, but I don't have a choice. :( I have a great support system (both online and offline), and I'll be looking into grief counseling soon.
My Mom's services are going to be held on Aug. 30th. She'll be buried with my Daddy in the Military cemetery. We'll be using the same funeral home for the services as well. It's only going to be a one-day service because our hearts just can't deal with two days. She was supposed to get better, move onto inpatient rehab and then come home. We thought she was getting better on Saturday, and then she was gone on Sunday night, so the rug was very much yanked out from under us.
Anyway, that's really all I have to say right now. I'll try to post again this week, but I cannot make any promises. With work, MyLot and my NKOTB Blog, I'm taking it one day at a time, just as we're all doing with life right now. Once again, I was only popping in to let you all know that I'm still around (despite the expired notifications) and hanging in there.
I'm gonna wrap this up now. You all stay safe and take care.
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@asianlady (2694)
• Ireland
23 Aug 21
I'm sorry for your loss. You will be better soon. It's normal to feel sad, it's a process to deal with.
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@Michellekidwell (29438)
• Sonora, California
25 Aug 21
I am so sorry for your loss…
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@Michellekidwell (29438)
• Sonora, California
25 Aug 21
@tammys85 You are most welcome
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@veunike (331)
• Hong Kong
25 Aug 21
This shall too pass and may God give you strength and knowing that God will always be there for you. You're not alone. I lost my parents last year too and sadly I couldn't go back to see them because we are miles and miles. It's okay to lose just don't grief too long coz better things are still yet to come. I know how it feels and the hurtful part is that we can never meet them in person anymore. While I'm reading your story, it reminds me of both of them, and I shed a tear but I try to smile on typing these words for you. Be strong okay, everything is gonna be fine. I promise.
@tammys85 (30226)
• Baltimore, Maryland
25 Aug 21
Thank you so much. I appreciate your kind words. There is no timetable for grief, and this is a huge loss (and shock) for me, so I'm going to take it one day at a time rather than trying to rush through it. I have a good support system. I'm sorry for your loss as well, and I hope you're doing okay. ![](/Content/images/emotes/hugs.gif)
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@kaylachan (74952)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
27 Aug 21
Take all the time you need.
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@Deepizzaguy (106595)
• Lake Charles, Louisiana
23 Aug 21
Sorry for the loss of your mom. I will do my best to take care of myself.
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@Deepizzaguy (106595)
• Lake Charles, Louisiana
24 Aug 21
@tammys85 You are welcome.
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