Hello again

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I am doing a reset in my life. I need some simplicity. It's time for me to step back to the basics. It seems ridiculous for me to keep this big house. It does hold a lot of memories, but the people are all gone. I live alone in a house with two kitchens fully equipped, 4 bedrooms, two offices and three living rooms. There was a time when we had a full house and now I have me, Cat and an occasional visitor. With that being said, I don't know what I want. I love where I live. I can get quickly to Montana, where I have another home, not so big. The government had an idea. They are bringing illegal's here and asked if I wanted to house them. That was a definite "NO" for me. Many people suggest I get a fresh start. I don't know how to do that. For me the lifetime of memories are probably what inspires me to keep working and contributing whatever I can. Sometimes it's very lonely and often times the tears are quick to come. Sometimes I wonder if I belong anywhere. The job still keeps me busy. The 40 hour a week requirement is a good thing. I set up my own schedule, so I really shan't complain about that. I do leave the house once every two weeks to pick up supplies. I do feed the cows and horses in the winter. I guess that is why I am not of much worth and don't have much to say. One of my former friends tells me at least once a week that I am simply preparing to die. I don't really think so. If that were the case everything would be boxed up and labeled. I apologize for rambling on. Have a great day all.